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I’m addicted to you

Fuck one word blog day. No offense, I just can’t do it today. Miss “I hate drugs and I hate people that use drugs” is addicted to something. Yes, me, I am addicted to Xanax. My addiction is physical not mental. I guess that just means I am not willing to suck dick for it. It means I can go without it but my body can’t. For the last two weeks I have been feeling like CRAP! That is why I haven’t blogged much, I guess.

I talked to someone (a professional) and she said that in this class of drugs it can take up to a year for me to start feeling better. She said since I haven’t had it for 2 or 3 weeks that my risk of having seizures is over.

I just don’t know what to do. I can’t handle much more of this. I can’t even go to the grocery store to get food or anything. I can take extra medicine (Zoloft and Lithium) and feel better, but I am sure any doctor wouldn’t advise that.

So am I stuck with throwing up, sweating, confusion, shaking, mood swings, panic attacks and racing thoughts?

I fucking KNEW I should have never even started taking those meds. My body cannot handle it when I withdrawal from something. I took them for 2 months at the most!!! That’s it!!! If I freaking took an aspirin everyday for a month straight I would probably get addicted. I don’t know why I have such bad withdrawals when I stop taking meds. Even ones that are supposedly not addictive, like Zoloft.

My gyno is supposed to call me tomorrow (today) and tell me about this surgery.

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Hello

After not having sex for 2 years I forgot what my ultimate goal was. Well today I just remembered. To stay away from shit and drama guys cause. Chris isn’t bad and I am just using him for sex hehe, but damn is he cocky!!!!! He thinks he is the shit and can say and do whatever he wants. Well of course he can, but he needs to learn how to shut his mouth sometimes. Oh well.

Today I hung out with Christy all day. We went out to lunch and then had drinks at her place at night.

Bryan is crying (he’s 8 months old)
Christy: “Come here pissy”
Kameron (3 almost 4): “Brothers not a pussy”
Christy: “Where did you hear that word at?”

That’s really all I have to blog about.

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Yayyyyyyyyyy

WoooHooo I am no longer a two year virgin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had sex with this guy Chris I have known for a few years. He always tried to have sex with me before and I wouldn’t even go as far as letting him touch my boobs. Man was I missing out. He is HUGE! Thanks Chris, if you read this.

This is usually a PG-13 site. Sorry I just had to share.

I had a GREATTTTT day today!

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Good day

That lady Tara that that crap happened with called and asked me if I could bay sit tonight. I didn’t even know she called because I never look at my phone. I called her back like 2 hours later and told her I would. I was baby sitting her girlfriends 2 kids (they live together) and their next door neighbor’s kid that is like 5 or 6. The little girl is SO annoying. She asks you questions constantly and bugs the hell out of me.

They all fell asleep except the little girl but she was lying down. She comes in the other room where I am lying down and says “can I sleep with you?” I was like awwwww. Kids can be so sweet. I feel bad for thinking she was annoying though. Kameron, Christy’s kid always wants to lie on the couch with me too. I was getting so annoyed with kids, but that changed my mind.

I went swimming today. Like every year I was the first person to go swimming. I am always the brave one to jump into the freezing water.

I got my window and lock fixed on my car yesterday. I am so happy about that! I need to stop getting in accidents. $80.00 for like a half hour of labor.

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Marie’s drunken wisdom

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I wonder if bipolar people could benefit from a 12 step program. That’s how many steps there is, right?

Maybe I ought to start bipolars anonymous because I am addicted to my bad behavior.

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I do

I have to have the surgery I have to go in on Tuesday to get blood work done and then she will schedule it.

Okay I am going out. Bye bye.

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Surgery?

Tomorrow I have to get an ultrasound and find out if I need that surgery. I am thinking I most likely will. The doctor at the ER said he looked at my ovaries in the CAT scan and they didn’t look bad though. He said that ultrasounds are much better for ovaries though so to still go to my appointment. I have only had minor surgery one other time so I am nervous. I am sure I will wake up feeling good though. I love sedatives Not that I abuse any drugs, but when I have been prescribed them they are fun.

I can’t even take my PCOS medicine for 2 days. They made me sign a paper saying that I agree to not take it because the die from the CAT scan could damage my kidneys.

Why can’t I be healthy? It could be worse tough. I could be dying.

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Yuck

Ally, it must have been a “GI Cocktail” because it was like seamen. Yeah it was pretty disgusting.

I came home with souvenirs! Excuse the nastiness of my arm because I was freezing and had goose bumps.

I just took a nice long nap and feel a lot better

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What a night

I was in the ER for 10 hours!!! Five were spent waiting to see a doctor and the other five were doing tests.

First of all I had to drink this yucky stuff to make my stomach numb to see if the pain went away. It didn’t go away. Then they stuck a catheter in me because I had my period and he said it’s the only way to get clean urine. Then I had an x-ray. The hot tech was like “would you like me to tie your gown for you?” I was thinking “no you can take it off!” Then my hot male nurse (with a wedding band on ) took my blood.

The doctor came back and said that he was really surprised my white blood cell count was so high. Double what it is supposed to be. I told him I have been seeing and oncologist for it and that I have even had a bone marrow biopsy. He said he wanted to do a cat scan. I drank this huge glass of ginger ale mixed with something to make my insides glow. Then I got stuck 4 more times by an idiot who didn’t know how to put in IV in.

By then I was freaking out and they said they would order me my meds. They came quick and I was still freaking out. They gave me some ativan for anxiety. After that I was feeling good. I was getting bored because my sidekick lost its signal. I was just talking on the phone with every one all night because my cell phone had a signal.

Okay so I had my cat scan. They shot me up with this stuff that made me feel hot all over. It felt so funny because I could even feel it in my clit. Then I was done and the doctor came back and said that the only think it MAY be is that there was more poop in my colon than there should be. He said he is not sure if that is it though.

They shot me up with some pain meds and told me to eat more fiber. Then I went home

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