I’m addicted to you
Fuck one word blog day. No offense, I just can’t do it today. Miss “I hate drugs and I hate people that use drugs” is addicted to something. Yes, me, I am addicted to Xanax. My addiction is physical not mental. I guess that just means I am not willing to suck dick for it. It means I can go without it but my body can’t. For the last two weeks I have been feeling like CRAP! That is why I haven’t blogged much, I guess.
I talked to someone (a professional) and she said that in this class of drugs it can take up to a year for me to start feeling better. She said since I haven’t had it for 2 or 3 weeks that my risk of having seizures is over.
I just don’t know what to do. I can’t handle much more of this. I can’t even go to the grocery store to get food or anything. I can take extra medicine (Zoloft and Lithium) and feel better, but I am sure any doctor wouldn’t advise that.
So am I stuck with throwing up, sweating, confusion, shaking, mood swings, panic attacks and racing thoughts?
I fucking KNEW I should have never even started taking those meds. My body cannot handle it when I withdrawal from something. I took them for 2 months at the most!!! That’s it!!! If I freaking took an aspirin everyday for a month straight I would probably get addicted. I don’t know why I have such bad withdrawals when I stop taking meds. Even ones that are supposedly not addictive, like Zoloft.
My gyno is supposed to call me tomorrow (today) and tell me about this surgery.
May 31st, 2006 at 3:19 pm
I hope that the withdrawls will die down soon. Just be strong and talk with those who know better than I, because their advice on getting through it will be more valuable than anything I could say here.
May 31st, 2006 at 3:25 pm
Hopefully you’ll feel better in no time. That’s what happens to a lot of people when they’re taken off meds. It’s almost like a drug - well duh, it is a drug, but you know what I mean. lol. JUst stay strong. I know you can do it!!!
Oh & your Mom was right…. the Buffalo Zoo is a kick ass zoo! It’s really nice and set up real good. So much better than our zoo here.
May 31st, 2006 at 7:53 pm
oh, hun..that sucks! I’m not looking forward to when its the time for me to cut back my meds. I hope ya feel better soon, have u thought of searching for herbal stuff to make u feel better?
June 1st, 2006 at 12:51 am
You could have used “fuck” for your one word blog day.
Just kidding, just kidding…
In all seriousness, I’m sorry that X managed to do that to you. I’ve heard some pretty scary things about the side effects and all with certain meds. I hope your body can give up the ghost soon, and just let it go. *hug*
June 1st, 2006 at 12:56 am
HAHA Jenn you are psychic. That was totally going to be my word if I did it
June 1st, 2006 at 1:14 am
I was strung out on Xanax for 2 years and went through hell to get off via Pdoc. Been 3 years and still have problems going places and I am married with son plus disabled and BPII. Good luck
June 1st, 2006 at 9:29 am
A girl that use to work at our store was addicted to Xanax and perk’s. I wasn’t friends with her, so I’m unsure as to how she dealt with it.
And Ally said what I was going to about talking to a professional. Good luck, babe.