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Edit @ 7:02pm
Let me make this clear, I have NO interest in my best friends friend. I would not marry him, date him, kiss him or fuck him. One he uses drugs and I am totally not cool with that. Two he is not my type. Of course I have no interest in my stalker.
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What do you do when you really, really, really, like a guy but he doesn’t want a girlfriend. You have a stalker. Your best friends friend is in love with you and wants to marry you. AND another guy but you don’t know what the fuck is going on with him?

Holy bejesus I am going crazy over here.

My incision is still bleeding pretty bad. I should go to the doctors tomorrow but I don’t know if I will have time.

I am supposed to be watering Christy’s grass, flowers, plants and checking her mail. I have been but it took me a while because of the surgery. She said all she cares about are the plants. GUESS WHAT??? I fucking killed her plants She is going to kill me when she gets home. I feel soooooo bad. I better buy her some more.

Okay I am going to go see what my DVR recorded that I can watch.

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Bleeding

Fuck it is just not my week. I just stood up and the whole front part of my underware was COVERED in blood. My left incision is bleeding. I called my doc and she said she could see me in the morning or I can go to the hospital. If it doesn’t stop soon I am going to go to the hospital because I am not going to get any sleep having to put pressure on it all night. Grrrrr I am not having a good time over here.

Edit @ 10:12am
I went to the ER last night because I was bleeding sooooooo bad. They said that it was probably a pocket of blood that needed to be released. They called my doctor too and she said she would see me this morning. They haven’t called me yet and their office is closed. Their answering service answers though and I don’t want to call them and have them call the doctor. I just don’t want to be an annoying patient. The hospital put a whole shit load of gauze on it. I mean like over an inch thick and the tape is see through and the blood has made it to the tape.

I don’t know if this matters but my oncologist kept asking me if I was bleeding because I was anemic last time I came in. Great… just what I need to do bleed some more.
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Stalkers suck

Grrr I told this guy that I didn’t want to hang out tomorrow. So he texts me 2 times telling me to call him. Then he calls my sidekick (who NO ONE ever calls and 3 people know the number to it) and then calls my cell phone two times after I told him I was going to bed. Yayyy for stalkers. The only reason I give anybody my sidekick number is to text me on it. I have unlimited texts on both but it’s easier to type on my sidekick. I even told him not to call me on my sidekick and he made a big deal out of the fact that he wouldn’t. If my myspace becomes private then you know why. I see a guy�s point of view now. GET OFF MY NUTS!

I can smother guys a bit and I don’t even do that kind of shit. The worst I do is get pissed off when they do something wrong and say stupid crap. Which I totally need to work on. I need to stop over reacting. I have always over reacted to everything though… is that called a drama queen? I don’t know but I am seriously going to try to stop. I don’t know if I will be successful.

Paul told me I am beautiful and all kinds of nice things… what do I do? I get pissed off and tell him he is too short, bad in bed and has a small penis.

Andrew is just a sweetheart. I think he is every womans dream man. He has never done anything wrong to me and calls me gorgeous. I got an attitude with him one time and accused him of crap.

Shane (my friend for 10 years) I get pissed at him all the time and he puts up with it. I have called him everything right down to a child molester (he’s not). He has always been there for me. From calling him at 3 am because I am extremely fucked up and needing a ride home, he will do anything for me.

That’s about all the guys I am seeing now. Andrew of course forgave me. Paul eventually did too but he just moved to Iowa a few days ago. Shane will always be my friend.

Anyways I just felt like talking so that�s it.

Oh one more thing. I have a doctors appointment at 9:30 with my gyno. I won’t say why because I don’t think you men want to know. If you are a female and you know what antibiotics can cause in women… then that’s why.

Edit @ 11:26am
OMG I was just talking to Emily on the phone and he beeps in. I answer and tell him I am on the other line with a friend and I will call him back. NO EVEN 10 minutes later he beeps in again. I just ignored the damn call. He leaves me a message to call him back.
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Edit @ 11:32am
Just called me 2 more times and texted me once grrrrrrrrrrrr.
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Edit @ 12:45pm
He called my sidekick 2 more times and Texted me 2 more times. Seriously…. TAKE A HINT.
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No cancer

I don’t have cancer!!!!!!!!!!!! WooHoo!!!!!!!! What should I do now? Live life to the fullest? Go bungee jumping???? Sex sounds good to me lol. If only Andrew would hurry back from being out to sea.

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Blah

I feel like TOTAL shit. I can barely get out of the bed. I felt fine the first 2 or 3 days and all of the sudden I am hating life. Sorry if I’m not visiting anyones site. I can’t even sit up most of the time. My incisions don’t hurt I just feel like I have a horrible case of the flu. No signs of infection though so that’s good. Okay off to bed.

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Helloooooo

I am probably scaring all my visitors away. Except Ally haha you sicko. Just kidding. Here is a another lovely pic of my one of my incisions.

Today it just hit me that it could be cancer. I am really scared now. She doesn’t think it is, but if it is I will be in the mental hospital. I have always had a huge fear of cancer because I have seen SO many people die of it. It is one horrible disease. Even if I never had cancer if I could cure one disease in this world that would be it. I wouldn’t even cure mental illness (which I suffer from). Cancer sucks ass!!!!

I decided to try to go all day without taking a pain killer. Bad idea. My throt is still KILLING me. It also feels like I have something small stuck in it…. maybe it’s swollen?

My post-op is August 8th and I will know the results then. I wish she would call me with them if she got them earlier.

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Surgery

Okay so here’s the deal. I had a tumor inside of my ovary. It was the size of a grapefruit when it is supposed to the size of a grape. I was shocked when they told me they took it out when I woke up. The first thing I said was “can I have kids?” They sent it to the pathologist to make sure it isn’t cancer. She said it is VERY unlikely it is cancer though.

I woke up freezing my ass off. They had to put a blanket on me with warm air coming through it because I was shaking so badly. They gave me lots of anxiety meds before the surgery because I was so nervous.

You wanna know the funny thing. My stomach barely even hurts at all. My throat is KILLING me. They must have shoved that damn tube down my throat. It hurts so bad and I woke up coughing my ass off.

My breathing kept going below 90% so they had to stop the surgery. I believe they were all done. I don’t really know the details of everything because my mom can’t remember most of it and I only talked to the doctor for like 2 minutes when I first woke up. I guess I will have to wait 2 weeks till I see her for my post-op to find out all the details.

Here is the pics: I don’t have a scanner anymore so I had to take a pic of them.

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Home

I’m home. They took out my whole right ovary. I didn’t have an infection in my tubes. I feel just fine. I’ll write more later and share the lovely pics they took of my insides.

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Nasty

This is going to be a nasty post so if you have a weak stomach do not read.

OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG That was the nastiest tasting shit EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I have seriously been scared for life. I threw up EVERY ounce of food in my stomach and every ounce of that drink. I only drank half of it cause that’s all my doctor said I had to. I called her. I threw up sooooooooooo much. Fuck I am still sick to my stomach. OMGGGGGGGGGGG EWWWWWWWW I can’t get over it.

I have been to the bathroom twice. I hope the bowel prep is successful eventhough I threw it all up. If not I’d rather die than drink that shit again.

OMG I am about to pass out.

Edit @ 12:08am

Well I doubt it was even successful. I barely even went to the bathroom that many times. I just could not stop throwing that stuff up. I was supposed to be crapping clear liquid and I never got to that point. I hope she will still do the surgery. If not I will never have the surgery cause I am NOT drinking that stuff EVER again. I don’t know what is going to happen. I am hungry and I can’t sleep. I am nervous and my stomach is rumbling from that nasty stuff. It’s called GoLytely by the way. Refuse it if you are ever prescribed it. They mostly use it for colonoscopies. Hopefully when I am old enough to need one they will have developed a better method. I wish I could sleep. I get really bad anxiety when I am tired and if I get little or no sleep I am going to be freaking out tomorrow morning.

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Pitty party

Yesterday was horrible. I feel okay right now but I just woke up so who knows.

I picked a huge fight with Paul. I’m pretty sure he will never talk to me again. We got in one the other day and I told him I was taking him off my Yahoo list. Well, he takes me off his myspace. Tonight I asked him if he took me off his Yahoo list and he said yes. That pissed me off so bad! I told him he was short, bad in bed and his dick was small. Yeah I wasn’t very nice. He called me psycho because he never knows when I am going to be nice or mean to him. I didn’t have sex for two years so you guys don’t really know, but watch. I will do this with every guy I ever like, hang out with, am interested in, whatever. I never learn! I can’t help it. I have an anger problem with guys and if you are not 100% perfect (which no guy is) I will let you know in a bad way.

I am ready to get this surgery over with. It is really depressing me. I don’t know if that is what was wrong with me yesterday but that is what my bad day started out with.

Emily pissed me off too. She texts me and tells me to call her. I call her and her phone is busy. I text her back and she says “sorry you missed out” or some crap like that. I messaged her back and said “So I miss out if I don’t call you within 3 seconds of getting your text message?” She knows I was having a hard day and she doesn’t give a fuck. So she talked on the phone and never taked to me. I am always there for my damn friends when they need me. I would drop everything for them but whatever. Maybe I shouldn’t give so much of myself to other people and just take care of me.

I have been wanting a cigarette so bad. I was watching Intervention yesterday and them smoking on it made me crave one so bad. This is the hard time for me. This timing is when I really want to start again. Actually I am kind of thinking about it. I am going to try to stay off of them, but I don’t know. I am starting to get in that “fuck it” mood.

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