Okay I am really starting to get nervous. I have been sitting at my desk, shaking my legs, laying my head on the desk and thinking for like 2 hours straight. The only thing I have done all day is go to the bank, text message Emily 500 times, and talk on the phone. I know I am going to be crying tomorrow and definitely Friday morning. I have to be to the hospital at 8am and my surgery is at 9:30am. It will be 4 hours then an hour in the recovery room to let the anesthesia wear off.
Well, I am going to go freak out some more. I don’t really feel like typing or have anything to talk about.
I have to drink 8 ounces of that crap every 10 minutes I also can’t have anything 2 hours before and nothing but liquid after… until midnight when I can’t have anything. The doctor said I have to start drinking it before 4 pm. So that means I can’t have anything to eat after 2. I’ll probably be up late because I always am, so I am going to be hungry.
I wrote Paul a letter and I’m sure it pissed him off. Sometimes I think I ruin things with guys on purpose. If things are not going my way with them then I would rather have nothing at all so I ruin it.
That’s okay I still have Andrew who is a total sweet heart. Gosh he is such a cutie pie. He is so sweet in bed too. He like kisses my stomach and plays with my hair all night after that. He doesn’t fuck me and leave and falls asleep with me and cuddles with me all night. He’s not a whore and I am only the 5th girl he�s ever been with. But one girl doesn’t count and I won’t say why because it’s his business, but it’s funny.
Well, speaking of Andrew… he’s coming over this afternoon so I am going to start getting ready.
Oh I found a friend on myspace last night that I haven’t talked to in 7 years! We spent almost 3 hours talking on the phone.
Man yeah Ally, I hope that stuff isn’t nasty. I am going to be having the worst time if it is. A whole damn gallon!!!! I don’t drink a gallon of anything in one day.
My mom said my Oncologist called her. I think they have my old number and they called her cause she is my emergency contact. He said he wants to see me before the surgery. Ummm I don’t know how he knew about the surgery. I have been seeing him about my high white blood cell count. Maybe my doc doing the surgery tried to get my records from him or something. Anyways… my appointment is Tuesday so I have one day to get a referral from my stupid ass doctor’s office. Ha they couldn’t do it in a week. They are so slow. It is absolutely ridiculous how bad they suck. They have wayyyyy more patients than they can handle.
Paul just left. You guys are probably wondering which one he is. It doesn’t matter anyway because he is moving to Iowa in less than 2 weeks. He just got out of the navy. I had to go pick him up because he was drunk as shit. Yeah I know, I aim high.
Did I ever let you know why I think Chris is such an ass? Did I ever tell you what he said to me? Well it’s kind of personal, but I don’t care. This is my blog and if I want to talk about something I will. Anyway he said “For not having sex for two years you’re not that tight.” I asked Paul if I was and he said I was just fine. Chris said I wasn’t looser than other girls, but yeah… HELLO Mcfly, you don’t say that shit to a girl. That would be like me telling him his dick was small. Which it is far from small, but I should tell him that.
I have been so lazy the last few days. I have been invited out but I turned it down every time. I am usually all for having some fun, shopping, etc… But I am just so drowsy for some reason. Like I can just sleep and sleep. Not even like tired just so tired that you can’t keep your eyes open and just drowsy… I guess.
So I went to my pre-op today and to the hospital for tests. Basically this surgery isn’t as simple as I thought it was going to be. It will be 4 hours. I need to drink A GALLON!!!! of this crap called “Go Lightly” the day before surgery. She said it makes you do anything but go lightly. That is because she thinks one of my organs or something is stuck to my bowels. She said there is a chance it could get ruptured during surgery and I need to have all the crap outta me because of infection. So I cannot leave my apartment the day before surgery and so on because I am going to be in the damn bathroom ALL DAY. She said I most likely have an infection in my tubes and there is a 1 in 100 chance it will spread when she goes in because some of the bacteria could leak. Man she just told me so much crap. So they are fixing my tube and my ovary. The risks of me not having the surgery are that the cyst could rupture and I would need emergency surgery and they need to send the cyst thing to a pathologist because it most likely isn’t but it could be cancer. I started crying. I am so scared
I got some good drugs for after though:
My sidekick 3 came today. The fedex man and ups man pulled in my parking lot at the same time for me. I got to see my hot crush, the ups man.
OH AND the new sidekick comes with a mini sd card. Wellllllll I had it on my lap and I stood up and forgot it was there. Next thing I know I hear Andy chewing on something. Well he DEMOLISHED the brand new SD card it came with. Grrrrr little stinker. He is lucky I don’t hit my babies because if I did I would have kicked his ass.
And finally someone put this on my door. I wonder if it was a random person or someone I know. It was there when I left my apartment the other morning. Weird.
When somebody says your bed is comfortable don’t reply with “That’s what everyone says.” I am a little slow okay.
Excuse the lint on my throw. I have no clue how it got there.
That reminds me of when I wanted a new bed so bad. I told my dad if he bought me one I would let him put his business advertisment on it. No I am not that bad. I just say dumb stuff.
Hmmm not much to blog about. Hung out with Christy today and her handsome little boy.
I’m getting tan: …well tan for me
Holy crap! Christy told me they had a sidekick 3 now. I just ordered it. Yayyyy. I am such a nerd. Why in the world would they release the Sidekick 3 right after they came out with the Juicy Sidekick? So all those people that spent an arm and a leg on a Juicy one now have an old one right after they bought it.
I took comments off of moderation. Psycho girls IP is blocked so she won’t come back unless she is really psycho. It’s funny she acuses me of being crazy. Crazy? How about wanting to drive 8 hours to meet a guy you’ve never met. Crazy is when all of your friends you have met in a yahoo chat room.
I haven’t been in a chat room since I was like 17. No offence to anybody but they are really lame.
Hmmm what else can I blog about. I am waiting for a friend to get home and I am at their house so I am bored.
Well, I guess I have nothing else to blog about. I had fun playing with their 5 and 7 year old boys. We played bored games and acted silly all night. Man kids are the BIGGEST cheaters when it comes to games lol.
I want to have kids so bad one day. I need to find a man first though. I may have to take fertility pills. If I end up with triplets my mom can have 2 lol. That’s a big risk with fertility pills. No I would love them all but man would I be in over my head.
My surgery pre-op is on the 11th. Then I guess I’ll be able to get pregnant. Good thing I’m on birth control. Don’t worry I’m not going to have a kid unless I am with someone.
My btother couldn’t shave the whole time they were out to sea. Well he could finally shave and is being stupid and looking funny.
This sunburn keeps giving the the chills. I keep getting really cold when it’s not that cold in here. I’m thinking of putting some winter clothes on right now.
I went and bought more clothes today. I got 4 shirts and 2 pairs of jeans. Duh I should have got them last night when I would have got 30% off, but I was so tired and the mall was about to close. Oh and I got a pair of shorts from Torrid. Okay is it just me or do they make most plus size clothes so freaking ugly. Not really Torrid, but Lane Bryant where I got the credit at, their shorts go down to my damn knees. Do they think fat people aren’t supposed to wear cute clothes?
I bought every pair of jeans I could find in petite. I am freaking short as hell so ALL jeans are WAY too long on me. I am too lazy to get them hemmed. Plus they fit me better in the legs because my legs are freaking skinny compared to the rest of me. I want a pair of Seven jeans and some cute ass ones in Torrid but noooooooo they are too long and don’t have petite. Oh well, one day I will be skinny and will be able to wear anything. Except in bras and tops unless I pursue this thing about my back hurting to get a boob job for free (my insurance will pay for it) (reduction).
I am freaking TIRED as shit so I think I am going to go to bed. I don’t want to but I am miserable.
Oh and I was doing so well with my shopping addiction. Have any of you noticed I haven’t talked about shopping in a reallyyyy long time? Well, I am relapsing lol.
Christy is such a bad influence on me lol. Well, she mentioned going to the mall and then she said no it’s too late. I told her we should go. We went for two and a half hours. I bought 5 pairs of cute undies, one pair of jeans, 5 tank tops, body spray and lip gloss. Not to mention the fucking store credit a store talked me into getting. I was like no way I won’t even get approved. They said even if I apply and I get denied I get 15% off and if I get approved I get 30% off. Well I’ll be damned I got approved. I only spent like $90.00 there with the discount though. Still plenty of store credit left to run up lol.
I went to a Mexican restaurant for lunch and Outback for dinner. Christy and I love to eat… another reason why we are bad for each other lol. We went swimming for a few hours and I got sunburn again for the 3rd time this week! Most people would be getting tan by now but I’m still burning. Christy gets tan and surprisingly she got pretty burnt too.
Well I am supposed to be at work in 9 hours and I have a ton of stuff to do tonight so I better get busy. Nite
Christy and I went and saw the fireworks at the beach tonight. Man was it packed. She had to wait an hour or so after they were done to leave my apartment because of all the traffic. I live 5 blocks from the beach so we walked there. Here’s a video. If you can’t watch all 3 minutes, fast forward to the end, they are always the best at the end.
Virginia Beach is full of cops. I have heard so many people talk about how many cops we have here at the beach. Well, Christy thought it was funny that we even have cops on Horses. It’s a horrible pic, I know. It was taken right infront of my apartments.
I meet a guy. He’s nice and everything. He tells me I’m pretty and says all the right stuff. He doesn’t use me for sex. He doesn’t even want to be called my “fuck buddy.” WHAT DO I DO? I act like a bitch. I am supposed to be alone forever I think. I think it was just because I was tired this morning. If I don’t get enough sleep WATCH OUT!
I got pretty burnt yesterday. I am getting a little color. I wouldn’t call it tan though haha. At least I don’t look like I am dead anymore.
I am going swimming tomorrow all day! I hope it is going to be HOT and sunny. Christy and I went swimming yesterday with baby. He loves the pool. Gosh he is so cute. I need to post a pic of him on here because he is adorable. We are going swimming with him again on Wednesday.
Well, I don’t feel like writing lately. I guess I need to wake up early tomorrow so I better get to bed.
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Here’s two pictures of him when we went to the beach. Isn’t he sooooo cute?
I also can’t have anything 2 hours before and nothing but liquid after… until midnight when I can’t have anything. The doctor said I have to start drinking it before 4 pm. So that means I can’t have anything to eat after 2. I’ll probably be up late because I always am, so I am going to be hungry.
