Just me babbling
Why do I always think I can fix guys?
Chris - I thought I could make him quit using drugs.
Dede - I thought I could make him not leave me for soccer.
Two pump chump - I thought I could have a lot of sex with him to make him not cum so fast. That did not work. He came over the other night when I mentioned he wanted to. Hell no I did not have sex with him. I’m not falling for that shit again.
Andrew - Too many things need to be fixed with him.
Andy - I thought I could make him not be a cheater.
I’m sure there’s many more guys I have tried to fix. They are all I can think of right now. Everyone agrees with me that guys suck ass though. At least all my female friends. I can kind of see a guys point of view sometimes though. Girls are too emotional, needy, jealous, etc… Not that I am not all of those things.That’s why I’m not a lesbian. Been there… done that. This girl fell in love with me after we had sex like 2 times (sounds like someone I know) and wanted me to move to Texas with her. I should have though. I should be a lesbian. No, I should be asexual.
At least I haven’t been in love with that many guys. It seems like it gets harder and harder for me to fall in love with guys. It seems like it is even hard for me to like guys. None of them are perfect. None of them are even close to anything I want. I can’t even get to know a guy or give them a chance to get to know me because they are such turn offs. Not to mention I cannot trust anyone. I don’t believe half the crap guys tell me. Maybe I’m paranoid.
You know it’s kind of sad when you judge how much you like a guy by how good they are in bed. Andrew was shy in bed, but it was more emotional. At least for me. Other guys… if they can fuck me good then I like them. That is not a lot of guys though. The experience I am speaking from is the 4 guys I had sex with this past year. Before that I kind of forget about the sex I had because I didn’t have sex for 2 years. 2 years I was with Chris and 1 year with Dede. I haven’t had THAT much sex, but enough to know what good sex is.
Chris was probably the best in bed. It’s not really because he was good in bed either. It’s because I trusted him and could do anything with him. Sometimes sex with people you don’t like is good too. You don’t need to trust them to do whatever you want because you just don’t give a fuck about what they think. That’s the way it was with everyone but Andrew. Well, two pump chump too cause I never got a chance to do anything with him.
I don’t know what the point of this was. Just to hear myself talk (or type) I guess.
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