Family Values Tour
Guess where I am going tomorrow?!?!!? To DC to see The Family Values Tour. I am staying the night in a hotel there too. I am sure you know who I am going with.
Andrew ditched me for The Family Values Tour on my birthday last year. It ended up being canceled. I told him karma is a bitch and he will never get to see the tour because of what he did to me. I remember exactly what he said to me when I talked to him that day. He said “did you have anything to do with it being canceled?” He is so cute! That was when we kind of got a long. We got along for about 3 months when we first met. Then everything went downhill quickly. It’s all his fault too. I have NOTHING to do with it. Yeah, I am psycho, but I am psycho because of the way he treats me.
BRB I am going to make some coffee!
I never drank coffee before I bought this coffee maker. I have to put it to use. I only like it with a ton of sugar and creamer in it. It has to taste like candy. I HATE black coffee. I am trying to start drinking coffee. That’s kind of dumb. Kind of like saying that you are trying to start smoking. I don’t drink it every day. Coffee and the news. I am getting old.
Emily totally made me realize something depressing. If I have kids anytime from now on, by the time my kid is my age I will be 50. Our moms are under 50. My mom is 46. She was saying how we are such losers because we don’t have kids and we’re not married, and we are 25 years old!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well I’ll be 25 in less than 2 months. I’m not even sure if I want kids. I definitely don’t want them until I am married. If I got pregnant now I’d freak out. I don’t want no baby daddy. It’s not even that we want to get married and have kids. It’s just what we feel like everyone tells us we have to do. I feel a lot of pressure now. I was seriously depressed after she told me that. Oh well, some nice, good looking and successful people aren’t even married by the time they are 40.
I am SO HAPPY I never married Chris. I look back and think “what the fuck was I thinking?” I make VERY poor choices when it comes to men. I like the asshole type. Chris wasn’t an asshole, but he was a loser. I was young though and I wasn’t thinking I need a man with a good job and so on. Dede is the best man I have ever been with. I would be happy to marry him right now. He was nice to me, did everything for me, had a great job playing soccer. He was just an all around great guy! He just loved soccer more than he loved me. If he never moved I guarantee we would be together now. It would be great to be married to him. I would get to travel the world while he played soccer. Although, I am not sure I would want to up and move all the time. I like having a lot of stuff, a stable home and lets not forget animals. I have no clue what’s going to happen with Andrew. In some ways I think we will be together for a long time and in some ways I think we won’t. It’s going to be tough to forgive him for all the things he has done to me.
I had a dream that we were talking on AIM and he told me he slept with another girl. All I said was “why the fuck are you telling me this?” I was really hurt though. Then I told him to call me and that was the end of the dream. If he had sex with another girl I would FLIP OUT. I am not the type of girl that is okay with it. If I didn’t love him, I would have a 3 some with him. He was all about it at one time. Now he doesn’t give a fuck about it anymore. I guess that’s a good thing. I really don’t think he’d go through with it anyways. He is REALLY shy. He really doesn’t care about sex all that much. When he is over here he does, but he doesn’t go out of his way to get it. He is denied me a few times 
Actually he has denied me a lot, but when he is over here I can seduce him. One time he was in such a bad mood he wouldn’t even kiss me. He is just such an asshole.
I can’t even give him a blow job anymore. Every time I do he cums. I am like “wtf?” I still make him have sex with me afterwards. I think he does it on purpose too. He says he can’t help it. Yeah right… he could help it when we first started having sex. You would think that is when guys would have a hard time controlling it. Especially because it was a while since he last had sex. Well, I am not falling for that anymore. From now on he gets a 30 second blow job… if even one at all. The first 2-3 times we had sex we did it 3 times. He cummed a 3 times too. I am lucky he can go a lot. He tries to make me do all the work and I try to make him do all the work. “My knee hurts, my shoulder hurts” wah, wah, wah. He is falling apart and he is only 25. I don’t have pain in any body parts. He always wants me on top and I suck on top so I don’t know why.
I need to ditch him. It’s not good. I am just waiting to see what he does after my surgery. I am 100% sure that is the only reason he is sticking around. Why do I let him treat me that way? Why am I with someone who is waiting for me to get skinny? The only reason I don’t blame him is because I don’t like fat guys. If he was fat I would never have had sex with him or even hung out with him in the first place.
My old friend used to be fat (he is skinny now). He said to me once… “I am fat and I don’t even like fat people.” I feel the same way. I’ll never forget him saying that to me. It didn’t offend me because I was skinny at the time, not that it would even offend me now.
You know what… I am such a sucker for lube. I have like 5 bottles of lube and I don’t even need it or use it. I have no clue why I buy it. I bought a bottle of KY Jelly warming gel. I used it once and it gave me the WORST headache I have ever had. I posted about it. Then someone got to my site by searching for “KY Jelly warming headache”. I guess it gives some people a headache.
I hate Rachel Ray. She is such a fake bitch.
Loooooooooong boring post… I know.
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