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I forgot to say that this guy I am going to have sex with. He is friends with one of Andrew’s friends. I knew that a long time ago. And NO! That is not why I am doing it! I already asked him if he knew Andrew over a year ago, and he said no. They went to the same college.

Ha, Randy just sent me an email accusing me of using him to get to Andrew. He is “sick of being used to settle something with Andrew”. I DID NOT FUCKING USE HIM TO GET TO ANDREW. I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT WAS MY REASON FOR EMAILING HIM, BUT ONCE I TALKED TO HIM, I LIKED HIM. AS A PERSON, AS A FRIEND. AND I WOULD HAVE HAD SEX WITH HIM AND BEEN HIS FRIEND, EVEN IF HE DIDN’T EVEN KNOW ANDREW.

I SWEAR TO GOD, I NEVER EVEN TALKED ABOUT ANDREW WITH HIM. I ASKED HIM A FEW COUPLE TIMES WHEN THEY WOULD BE HOME, BECAUSE ANDREW TAKES FOREVER TO ANSWER MY EMAILS. BUT THAT’S WHEN EVERYTHING WAS FINE WITH ME AND ANDREW. IF I EVER EVEN MENTIONED ANDREW’S NAME, IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS VENTING TO HIM. I NEVER SAID ANYTHING CRAZY LIKE “WHAT IS ANDREW DOING TONIGHT?”, “HOW MANY TIMES A DAY DOES ANDREW TAKE A SHIT?”. I NEVER FUCKING USED HIM, AND I WISH HE WOULD FUCKING BELIEVE ME.

HE HAS BEEN ACCUSING ME OF THIS ALMOST EVER SINCE WE FIRST STARTED TALKING. I HAVE TOLD HIM SO MANY TIMES THAT I DIDN’T. IF IT WAS SUCH A BIG DEAL, GETTING USED, THEN WHY DID HE HAVE SEX WITH ME ANYWAYS? A FUCKING GUY GET USED FOR SEX? THAT’S A MANS FUCKING DREAM. I DON’T KNOW WHY HE WOULD BE UPSET ABOUT IT. I DIDN’T FUCKING USE HIM THOUGH. I DON’T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE EVEN SAID ON HERE, THAT I FUCKING LIKE HIM. EVEN BEFORE HE KNEW MY URL.

FINE WHATEVER. I WILL LET HIM BELIEVE THAT, BECAUSE IT’S WHAT HE DOES ANYWAYS. NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I TELL HIM THAT I DIDN’T USE HIM.

AND YEAH… I AM PRETTY SURE HE HAS ACCUSED ME OF THIS EVEN BEFORE WE EVEN HAD SEX.

I DON’T KNOW WHY I AM SO UPSET OVER THIS, BUT IT FUCKING PISSES ME OFF. I HATE TELLING SOMEONE SOMETHING OVER AND OVER AND THEY DON’T BELIEVE YOU. ESPECIALLY WHEN I KNOW I AM TELLING THE TRUTH, AND I’M THE ONLY PERSON THAT BELIEVES ME. SERIOUSLY… I AM PISSED. I WANT TO PUNCH SOMETHING, BUT I WON’T, BECAUSE I AM NOT A VIOLENT PERSON.

ASK EMILY, I AM MAD. I AM YELLING AT HER ON THE PHONE NOW, AND SHE IS ASKING WHY I AM YELLING AT HER. LOL

I HATE BEING CALLED A LIAR.

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13 more days

I usually NEVER get my period. Even when I take my birth control, sometimes I will barely get it. If I don’t take it, I NEVER get it. I can go 6 months or more without getting it. That’s one reason why I am on birth control. Well, I haven’t taken my birth control in maybe 2 months. And I have my period!!!!! An almost normal one. More normal than usual. I bet it has to do with me losing 20 pounds. They say being overweight is so bad for your girly stuff. I am still overweight, but I am sure it helps. I am sure I will get it all the time when I lose weight. I am sure it will be easier to get pregnant too. I better take my birth control then.

They will be here to screw my handle back on my drawer in the coffee table, today. I am probably retarded for making them come out just to do that. I just couldn’t get this one screwed back in, so I don’t know if I could get the new one screwed in. I am also awesome at stripping screws, because I am such a weakling.

I saw a girl wearing the most ridiculous shoes yesterday. I wish I had my cell phone in there so I could take a picture. I am telling you, THEY WERE ORIGINAL. They looked like Converse, but they were HUGE. REALLY wide, and just the biggest shoes I have ever seen. I don’t know if she had them specially made, because she has some kind of foot deformity. I doubt it. I don’t know if I would have even taken a picture, because she looked like a gang member. I don’t know if we have gangs here, but she so could have kicked my ass. I have never heard of any gang crap on the news or in school or anything. I would be scared that she would notice me doing it. I was also staring at one of the guys she was with, because he had acne on every inch of his face. I know… I am rude.

God I HATE Joan Rivers. I don’t know why I say random stuff like that. She was on the Today Show and I am watching it.

I kept trying to catch “The Exorcism of Emily Rose” on Starz. Then I realized I have the movie… duh.

Ha, I just got this email from Progressive.

Did you know that, each year, deer collisions account for over 1.5 million accidents, resulting in thousands of injuries and over 150 fatalities?

We are alerting you because your area has a large deer population and an increased risk of deer collisions from early October through late December when the deer mating season is in full swing.

Your safety is important to us, so take a moment to review the following safety tips. Please be careful and drive safely.

I have never seen a deer here. There are barely any woods here. Ha, Andrew ran into a deer last year (near Richmond)… I think that’s when it was. That’s what he forgets (my brother used to say that when he was little).

Okay, that’s enough dumb, random stuff. On to something REALLY important…

I neeeeeeeeeeed to make out with someone. What am I talking about, I need to have sex with someone. I already know who, so it should be easy. He is a busy guy, though. He is getting his masters degree and works and has a million friends. Yes, I have made out with him before. We kind of lost touch with each other. I don’t know if he likes me like that. I mean, he did it before, why wouldn’t he do it again? I just emailed him, and he seems interested in talking to me again. He tried to add me to his myspace, but he couldn’t because you have to know my email or last name. So I added him. I hope he doesn’t read this :blush: I sound like a major slut, but really, I haven’t had sex in a long time. I’ll admit, I’ve had my moments. Like when I first met Andrew. He never threw it in my face… until like two weeks ago. He started calling me a whore and all kinds of names, because he was mad at me about what I did. If he really thinks I am a whore, he hides it well, because he has never said anything about it. I asked him a long time ago if I am too slutty for him, and he said he likes wild girls. That was the day after I had sex with Randy, when I asked him that. I can always remember stuff by certain things that happen. So it was March 17th (St Patrick’s Day). LOL, I swear, I don’t write this stuff down. I can look up stuff on here, though.

I am making progress. I didn’t even want to kiss anyone or sleep with anyone but Andrew.

Man, you all must think I am a total idiot. I make an ass out of myself on this site so much.

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I am tireder

OMG, I just realized that since I am getting my surgery, I can’t get drunk and make out with random guys anymore. Well, Emily made me realize that. What ever shall I do :(

Emily says maybe I’ll be slutty anyway, because I will be skinny. I sure hope so!!!!!

Maybe I will be able to fit some shots in my stomach. I can’t believe I love chocolate cake shots, and I HATE vodka. I will have to make some of them. How many ounces are shot?. Maybe between 1 and 2? In the small shot glasses.

The last time I kissed a guy was on 8-21 (Andrew). The last time I had sex with a guy was on 5-20 (Andrew). I don’t mark it on a calendar. I just did a search in WP. I need to make out with a guy, and I know who. Maybe. He’s not a random guy, either. I know him, and I’ve kissed him before.

Man, I have to go to the store and get my medicine. Then I have to go to the pet store and get dog food. I am tired. I better go now, before I get even more tired.

I want a cigarette soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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This is going to sound weird

Someone tried to do something to me, and they don’t know that I know. But what they tried to do was good. There’s no way I can tell them that I know, because how I know is bad. I want them to try to do it again. I don’t know what to do. I know you all can’t help, because you will have no clue what the hell I am talking about. I cannot tell anyone, even though I want to scream it to the world. The only people that know are Dorka, Emily, TJ and Christy. I shouldn’t have even told Christy. If you read this Christy, I will tell you why. It’s nothing against you. Now Leslie knows She gave me advice. I’ll do it. I feel dumb doing it, but I will.

My neighbor, whom I have only said hi to before, knocked on my door crying this morning. She said “can I come in?” So she came in and the first thing I noticed is that she smelled like alcohol, SO BAD. This was at 12pm. She is fighting with her boyfriend. She was a little weird. She must have asked me what my dogs’ names are and which is the boy and the girl no less than 10 times. I even told her; “the boy has the blue collar on, and the girl has the pink one.” She kept talking about how she is bipolar too. She knows the girl that I know at the tanning salon, and the girl at the tanning salon (Jane) told her to come talk to me. She was kinda getting on my nerves. Who knows, maybe we can get drunk together. As long as she doesn’t start crying while we are drunk. That would suck. I am a HAPPY!!!!!!!!!! drunk. Yeah, I don’t know, she’s kind of weird. You have to be — to go knocking on someone’s door — that you don’t know — crying. I would never do that. I don’t think bad of her or anything like that. I just couldn’t do it. I was hoping she had some cigarettes LOL. I don’t buy my own anymore, I just smoke everyone else’s. It’s not going to kill me (during my surgery) to smoke a few.

OMG two more weeks!!!!! I am nervous, but NOTHING will stop me. Unless my insurance cancels it again. If they did, I’d try to take out a loan. I know I’d get denied, though. It would suck ass. I know they won’t cancel it. I think I am going to start taking some immune boosters, because if I get the flu or a cold, they have to reschedule my surgery!

Maury is so gay. I only like the paternity results. I don’t like looking at 100 pound 4 year olds. I don’t like guessing if someone is really a man or a woman. I don’t like watching “most shocking videos”. I don’t even like the lie detector ones, because I don’t trust lie detectors. With paternity ones, you know that it’s the 100% truth.

Oh and I lost 2 more pounds, according to my doctors scale. I don’t know if they weighed me on the same one, though. There’s two right next to each other. My stupid expensive digital scale still says something different every time. My floor isn’t perfectly flat, and I move it to a flat surface every time, but it still says something different.

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Stupid dogs

My fucking dogs are driving me CRAZY. I didn’t feed them this morning and both of their stomachs are growling, but they both refuse to eat. Frenchie is always like this, but Andy always eats, ESPECIALLY soft dog food! I think I hear him eating now. I have to put his in the bedroom, or else Frenchie will fight him for his and her dog food.

My brother got me some stuff from China.

This is a stamp and ink. It has my name in English on it, and my name in Chinese.

Chop sticks with my name and “Hong Kong” on them.

A leather book.

I went to my appointment today. It lasted about 5 minutes, like my two other ones. I was supposed to buy children’s vitamins. I wasn’t sure about that. Flintstone vitamins are gooood. At least I remember them being good.

Fuck, he’s not eating. I guess they both will just starve.

Okay, I am going to go attempt to watch The Wicker Man for the 3rd time.

Holy fuck it’s cold. I am turning the heat on.

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Mmadmds

I am about to go to my last appointment with my surgeon, in an hour and a half. I think I said the last one was the last one, but he had to see me again, because he has to see me within a month of my surgery. So now this is my 3rd last one, after they canceled my surgery in June. This is it, though, I promise.

Ummmm, I have nothing to talk about, for once.

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Labels

I was asking Emily what I should label, because I have a label maker but nothing to label. She told me to label my toothpaste. I got this great idea. I should put a label on EVERYTHING in my apartment. Put “toothpaste” on the toothpaste. Put “chicken noodle soup” on the chicken noodle soup. Put “coffee table” on the coffee table. Then I should invite people over to see what they’d say. I like doing crazy things to test people. To see if people notice and what they would say. Sometimes I do crazy stuff because I am really crazy, but sometimes I do it to get a reaction out of people.

LOL I just talked to Andrew. He was in a REALLY good mood… kinda. He was actually really laughing. He was laughing at me being retarded, but he was laughing.

In two more hours it will be 15 more days!!!!! Soon it will be two weeks!!!!! I am nervous. I will probably blog from the hospital, on my cell phone. I will probably be taking pics of me in my hospital gown before the surgery. That’s what I did for my last surgery. Let me see if I can find them. Damn I can’t find them I found my incision, though. I wonder what happened to the hospital gown pics. I know I took them with my cell and uploaded them to whatever moblog I was using at the time. I thought I had them all saved. I probably deleted them because I thought I looked ugly. Here’s the post, and here’s the pictures they gave me. I hope they give me cool pictures this time

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I don’t know why…

I can never sleep when I drink.

My mom, Christy, me, Jake, TJ, my dad and a bunch of my mom’s friends went out tonight. We went to some bar. TJ ended up leaving, because he was going dancing with someone. My mom or him wouldn’t tell me who. Everyone that worked at the bar was dressed up for Halloween. Jake says to our waitress “can I blow your whistle bitch?” She was dressed as a referee and had on a whistle. Apparently it was some song. The waitress turned into a mega bitch after that, and Jake even said he was sorry, and she wouldn’t even acknowledge him. She was a bitch.

We left and went to some weird ass club. It was weird, but TJ ended up being there. Hmmmmm, I wonder how that happened. I bet my mom knew that. I never saw who he was with, but according to Christy it was some Asian chick LMAO. He lives in Japan and is divorcing an Asian chick.

Jake was trying to get me to dance with him, and my mom’s friend was trying to pull me up out of my seat, and I fell on the ground. That was funny.

Christy was over it. She didn’t want to drink, because she was driving. That wasn’t her shot, in one of the pictures, that was my shot. It was a “blow job”, and I got one for me and Christy, but she wouldn’t take it. So Jake ended up taking it. He hated it. I tried to tell him that he had to take it with no hands, but he wouldn’t listen lol. He supposedly hates Kahlua. Who the hell hates Kahlua?

So I we went home at like 1am, and I was trying to convince TGO to call me for over an hour. I ended up calling Lisa Marie. I know at least two of TGO’s friends are real. I have talked to Lisa Marie and Lissa on the phone. He wouldn’t call me, though

I cannot sleep, and I am so tired. I can never sleep when I get drunk, for some odd reason.

That’s crazy. Only 16 more days. Two more weekends to get drunk, woohoo. I shouldn’t do it on the last weekend, but beer and liquor doesn’t have protein. That’s what they are trying to do, limit my protein to shrink my liver so they can have better access to my stomach. I guess it’s protein, or maybe all food. I don’t know.

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emily tells me that she is going to send me a video of her singing karaoke. so ill post it on here. she better send it to me. i think shes a liar though. i think i better get to bed or else…

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lord

im just reeeeeeally trying not to fall asleep with a cigarette in my hand so i dont burn the place down. thats all. all i remember is that my moms friend knocked me on the floor. jake kept telling me to dance with him and my moms frind kept trying to pick me up and i fell on the floor.

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