I had no clue
December 22nd, 2007 Mariethat my eyes are so bad. I was singing on RockBand, and it tells you the words. I could not even sing because I couldn’t read them. They were all blurry. I thought it was the game or TV. I decided to try to put my glasses on, and after that, I could see perfectly. I like singing the best because it’s the easiest. The guitar is pretty easy, but the drums are hard. We did really good tonight. Three of the songs I couldn’t sing. I couldn’t sing that “Should I Stay or Should I Go” song. I can’t sing Nirvana - “In Bloom”. There’s another one I couldn’t sing, but I forget what it was. I know those two songs by heart too. I am best at the songs sung by girls. I guess because of the pitch. The “I Think I’m Paranoid” song by Garbage I am almost perfect at. The “Should I Stay or Should I Go” song I tried to sing like 10 times, and I failed every time. It was the second to last place on the tour, and I gave up. Actually, it may not have been the second to the last place, but we were almost done.
I just ate some regular food really slow and chewed well, and it didn’t get stuck. I had some Lean Cuisine pizza.
My doctor called me in some Trazodone tonight. I wasn’t about to pick it up because she called it in 10 minutes before they close. She always calls me late. She calls be near 9pm or after every night. I just thought about my old doctor I used to go to. Someone asked me for some number that had to do with them being a provider or something. They refused to give it to me because they said it’s private. Then the pharmacist told me it’s right on the prescriptions they give you. I HATED that place. It was a place for drug addicts and mentally ill. If I drank one time, I was accused of being an alcoholic. I don’t know why they even accepted me. I think because I used to use drugs, but that way way before I went there, and I was never addicted to anything. I didn’t have insurance, and it was free. I didn’t have insurance for a few years when I turned 18. Not that long, because I got it from my job after that. I got it from my job and never used it once. I still went to the free place. They take SO much out of your check for insurance. Unless you make a good amount of money, I guess.
I bought some wine tonight. It’s McWilliams. It says shiraz, whatever that means. It’s Australian. This hot guy at Target started talking to me about wine, and I asked him what kind is good. I bought some wine glasses too, a corkscrew and a thing to put on it if you don’t finish all you drink. Sorry, brain fart on what it’s called. I was joking with my cousin and telling her that I should buy a wine cooler. She knows how I love to waste money.
My mom bitched me out so bad tonight for asking for $120.00. She is sick of giving me money all the time. That wasn’t including the wine and everything I bought tonight. She’s the enabler. Yes I learned that going to therapists so much.
I am going to bed. I am SO excited about tomorrow.
104 ViewsI just had some chocolate…
December 17th, 2007 Marieex-lax that is. I am not getting enough nutrition. I just had to go buy it. I am getting some fiber from my mom tomorrow. I just don’t want a roid more than I don’t want anything in this world. I have two friends that have one. It really puts a damper on anal sex 
Not that I even have anal sex. Not that I even have sex. But I may go to jail for rape on Saturday.
