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You would think I’d take more pictures of myself now that I am skinnier. I only take pictures with my webcam because I can see how it is going to look. I am the same size as Christy, and I always thought she looks skinny. I am still hard on myself.
Andy woke me up a million times. I don’t know why, but he is shaking constantly. Not shaking like he is nervous, shaking like dogs shake when they get wet. It happened one time before. I think it has to do with his crate because I put him in it for the first time in a long time last night. The other time he was also in his crate. He was doing it when he got out too. I mean non-stop. I am thinking it’s because he itches, but my dogs most definitely do not have fleas. He is sleeping now and has stopped.
I am so tired. I couldn’t sleep well last night. Maybe because I took a nap until 12am. I don’t know what I am going to do today. I am NOT going shopping. Okay… maybe I will. No… I won’t.
You know how I kind of have a shopping problem? My parents left all their life insurance money to my brother lol. He is supposed to give me a certain amount each month. I don’t even know how much he is supposed to give me. My mom has crap for life insurance since she has had cancer (skin cancer). My dad has a lot. I know my brother would give me the money. He is honest and trustworthy and loves me and my mom more than anything in the world. I also get my brother’s life insurance, after my mom, if he ever died.
I think I need a new wireless router. The one I have wouldn’t even work with Tiger. I know that because they gave me my MacBook Pro with it on there and the upgrade CD. It works with Leopard but goes out a lot. It’s not enough of an annoyance to buy a new one. It only happens every once in a while, but it has been happening a lot this morning. I hate when it happens at night and I am signed on AIM. AIM for Mac makes a noise when you connect, and it will wake me up when it is trying to reconnect.
Andrew is leaving tomorrow, and I don’t think he has time to come see me. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to feel. I was wayyyy more upset when Chris broke up with me, so maybe I’ll be okay. I am 100% over Chris now. It’s just so hard to get over him and continue to talk to him and see him. I won’t be seeing him anymore, but I’ll still be talking to him. When Chris and I first broke up, he moved in with two of his friends that I HATED!!!! So I never went to see him once. Then he ended up moving to Arizona, and I had no phone number for him, so it was easy. Dede went to NY and left the country to play soccer. But I still feel like it’s the end of the world with Andrew. I feel like I will never get over him. I know I will because you always do, but I hate feeling this way right now.
I can’t wait to go to NY. My aunt is great. Everyone always feel sorry for me and pays for me to come see them lol. TJ did it so I could go to Japan, Babz has done it multiple times for me to go see her near DC, and my aunt just did it.
I am bored. I don’t want to end this post. I don’t want to go back to the mall. People that work there are getting to know me. Yesterday the girl at Mac asked me if I was feeling better. I told her I was having a bad day the other day. The girl at American Eagle asked me if she was going to see me everyday. It’s kind of embarrassing. There is absolutely nothing I need.
I missed my knitting class last Wednesday because Andrew upset me.
Okay. Bye.
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