I feel like crap. I slept too much.
I dropped my desktop off at Best Buy yesterday to get cleaned. I want Windows too. I just don’t like using two computers because I neglect one of them, and it makes me feel like I wasted money. I guess I can just use my laptop at night when I am lying in my bed, and I’ll probably use my desktop more since it will be on my desk. Not that I am actually using my desktop when it is in my closet. The speakers take up a lot of room, and I don’t have that much room on my desk. It will fit, it will just annoy me. I believe that less is more when you decorate your house. That’s not happening in my small apartment. I used to be a “pack rat”, but not anymore.
You know, I still have ALL my fat people clothes in the trunk of my car? My trunk is filled up with that, and I haven’t been able to put groceries in there, or anything, in a long time. Maybe I’ll take them to the thrift store today. I just took out my fat shorts to give away. It was funny when I was putting my new shorts away. I didn’t have to, and I couldn’t even if I wanted to, fold them horizontally because they are so small.
I haven’t lost any weight in a few days, and it’s kind of annoying since I am eating next to nothing. I guess things are going to go the way they have been going since I had my surgery. I won’t lose anything for a few days, then I will lose a lot for a few days.
It’s a definite fact that I have lost 74 pounds. That’s what my surgeon says, and that’s what my digital scale says. I am still confused about what happened with the liquid diet weight I lost, from when I was on the clear liquid diet for the week before my surgery. It’s like one day I weighed myself and I lot 10 pounds, and the next day I weighed myself and I gained it back, but when I gained it back I was still on the liquid diet. I didn’t know until the morning of my surgery when they weighed me at the hospital. I know it wasn’t the scale because I weighed the same when I got home.
My surgeon got a new digital scale, and it matches my scale perfectly. Now that I think about it, I think they took that I weighed 258 from what I told them, since their scale always said I weigh more. They let me report my weight a lot on forms when I was going to classes. Anyways, it baffled me why they didn’t have a nice digital scale. It is a very nice office, and the have the best surgeons in the very large area I live in. They preform A LOT of weight loss surgery. People from over 5 large cities go there. I’ve never heard of anyone going to anyone else for their weight loss surgery. My mom knows a TON of people who have had weight loss surgery at her work. It’s a real wide scale with handles on it for really fat people lol. Also, at the place I was taking a lot of my classes at… mostly the 3 month supervised diet with the dietitian… it’s like a physical therapy place mostly… we never got weighed once, they let us write in our weight. I thought that was kind of funny that their scale was broken, and the insurance company wanted to know our weight, but they let us write it in and we could have been lying.
I guess I lied about my weight, because at the time, I had no clue that I had lost 20 pounds. I wasn’t even weighing myself like I was supposed to be. Once I found out, I was so scared that they would deny me. They want you to try to lose it on your own first. They expect you to follow what the dietitian is teaching you to see if you can lose weight without the surgery. I did not exercise once, so I have no clue how I lost 20 pounds. I, for some odd reason, lost my appetite. I think part of it was what I was going through with Andrew and the stress and crying every day. I still was not eating healthy, though. It’s still odd to me that I would lose 20 pounds, when I had not lost weight in years and years, and I didn’t even try. So what the insurance company was getting, was stuff I filled out myself, and I didn’t report any weight loss. I guess it may be a good thing that their scale was broken.
I don’t think anyone I know, or anyone that reads my site, actually believed I would have the surgery. I talked about it for almost exactly a year, and things kept getting pushed back. I would miss appointments because I am not a very reliable person, and I would have to wait a month for the next appointment. My insurance canceled my June 6th surgery date, and I didn’t have the surgery for 5 months after that. I had to take a 3 month supervised diet class, and then had to wait for another surgery date.
I could almost make this a weight loss surgery blog. Well, at least it’s not a blog about Andrew anymore 
April 14th, 2008 at 6:29 pm
I figured you would have the surgery - you were really excited about it once the plans started coming together. I was just worried something else would happen to prevent it - with your insurance or something like that.
You’ve been doing so well after the surgery… and 74 pounds is fricken amazing!