Something isn’t right
I’ve been feeling really weird for a little while now. All kinds of things. I wrote on twitter last night that I have been thinking crazy thoughts. I told Steve that I can’t concentrate during sex. I had an anxiety attack a couple of weeks ago. Well tonight I felt like I was going to faint, like I do a lot of the time. I lied in bed and my heart started racing and I was breathing really heavy. I thought I was going to faint. I felt so bad that I called 911.
Two minutes after I felt like complete shit, it went away, but I still did not feel good. I called 911 the moment I felt that way because I was sure I was going to become unconscious or faint. I was feeling like shit, so I ran to my front door to unlock it in case something did happen to me.
The fire truck got here first, and they used their damn sirens and everything. I didn’t see any of my neighbors outside, thank God. They took my vitals, and everything was fine. They tested my blood sugar, and it was normal. They asked me if I wanted to go to the hospital, and I said no if nothing is wrong with me. They said they can’t determine that. The ambulance came and I got in it and they took me to the ER.
I was mostly fine, so I had to wait in the waiting room, and I didn’t wait for as long as I expected.
There was a TV in my room, thank God. I was there for about 5 hours. It was freezing in there. They gave me chest x-rays, an EKG and took blood, and I peed in a cup.
My potassium levels were very low.
Symptoms of low potassium:
* Weakness, tiredness, or cramping in arm or leg muscles, sometimes severe enough to cause inability to move arms or legs due to weakness (much like a paralysis)
* Tingling or numbness
* Nausea or vomiting
* Abdominal cramping, bloating
* Constipation
* Palpitations (feeling your heart beat irregularly)
* Passing large amounts of urine or feeling very thirsty most of the time
* Fainting due to low blood pressure
* Abnormal psychological behavior: depression, psychosis, delirium, confusion, or hallucinations.
I have a few of those, but I have the abnormal psychological behavior bad. I’ve been thinking really weird things, like I said. I feel out of touch with reality. I’ve been very confused, and it’s hard to get my point across to people. I forget the correct words to use. I have 3 blog drafts saved, and I never posted them because they didn’t make sense to me. I mostly ramble on when I am leaving someone a voicemail because I can’t seem to get my point across and I get confused. I am obsessing over stuff. There’s a few things I can’t get out of my head for more than 3 minutes at a time.
I don’t believe it was because I am bipolar. I have had anxiety attacks, depression, and everything that goes a long with being bipolar. I have never felt this way before.
I was so thirsty too, and I couldn’t get out of bed to get something to drink. I thought about falling asleep and not feeding Frenchie. I forced myself to do that, and I had to sit down to open the can of food and put it on her plate.
I hope things get better. I have been feeling this way for about a week now. I was kind of grumpy when Steve was here.
I haven’t been taking the Adderall. I took it two times.
I took a cab home from the hospital. I didn’t want to call and wake anybody up.
This was not the hypochondriac me. I don’t like hospitals. You are there for hours and hours. I really thought I was going to pass out and possibly not wake up. I know when you faint, though, you immediately wake up the second you hit the floor. That’s what happened to me, and I’ve heard that. If you don’t wake up, you probably have something else going on. I was scared about not waking up. Plus I felt like I was going to faint in bed.
I still feel shitty. I am going to try to sleep now.
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