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So I went to the looney bin, and I almost went looney and got locked in a padded room shortly after I was there. Okay, so I checked in. The only way to get admitted is to tell them you are suicidal, or else your insurance won’t pay for it. So I went through a million questions, and then I went up to the unit. First of all, there’s a unit for people who are just depressed and pretty much normal. Well, that unit was full, so they told me they have to put me on one with people who have more “acute” problems. I asked “like what?” She said people who hear and see things and such. I didn’t dare ask if they are homicidal lol. I kept thinking of how I was going to wake up to my roommate trying to strangle me in the middle of the night.

Anyways, the reason I almost lost it: I got up there at 2:30am. I was asked a million questions by the nurse, and this new nurse got there at 3am. When everything was done I asked if I could call my mom to let her know I was there. The nurse that was leaving said yes, but to ask the other nurse. THAT BITCH SAID NO. I immediately started crying, and I told her that I have dogs. She said no, so I went into my room crying, and then I came out and said that I wanted to check myself out right now. She said it may take until 6am. I said that was fine and went in my room. Then they came in and asked if I would stay if they let me call my mom, and I said yes.

Then I called my mom, and I told them I want to get checked out anyways. So she called the man that admitted me, and he said they would TDO (temporary detaining order) me. Petition the court do demand I stay there for 2 days. Grrrr. So I threatened them. I said “I am hungry, and you don’t have food I can eat. I have a medical condition, and if you don’t feed my ass, I’ll sue you.” Haha. So he asked if I could eat chili or mashed potatoes, and I said yes.

So this is what REALLY pissed me off. This nice man goes and gets me some food. There’s two trays of food. There’s stuff in them, but one has chili, and one has mashed potatoes. I go to eat it, and it’s cold. So I ask the man if they have a microwave. He says yes. So the nurse said “which one do you want?” I told her both because I can only eat one thing from each of them. She said “PICK ONE!” So I said the chili and cried some more. Then he warmed it up. He gave it to me, and I wanted to throw it in her fucking face so bad. But I knew if I did, I’d probably be charged with assault and go to jail. So I ate it, and threw it up, of course. I called her a bitch. She said “excuse me?” I said “nothing.”

I was telling the people that work there what happened, the next day. They gave me a complaint form to fill out, and it will go in her record. Everyone else that worked there was really nice.

The people up there weren’t even all that crazy, that I could tell. Everyone seemed perfectly normal, except for this one lady who talked to herself 24/7, and you couldn’t understand a word she was saying. I thought it was funny though. I really do love crazy people.

My doctor let me out this morning. My doctor that I have on the outside came to see me in there. I ate yogurt and drank Ensure while I was there.

I really did mean to go get some liquid taken out of my band before I leave tomorrow morning. Everything just happened so quickly. Now I have to suffer. It seems like it is getting worse and not better.

I have to wake up at 4am I hope I can fall asleep, and I hope I don’t wake up in the middle on the night. I am going to Niagara Falls tomorrow. It’s minutes from where my aunt lives. It’s supposed to rain though Should I not use my camera in the rain? That’s probably a dumb question.

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