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Damn, all of my posts are like really long now

No fair… my brother is going to Dublin, Ireland and Amsterdam for 3 weeks when he moves back here. I wish he would ask me to go so bad, but I am poor anyways. Maybe if I didn’t run my credit card up again. Why did I have to do that? Do you ever spend a lot of money, and you’re like… “hmmmm, what did I spend it on?” All I can remember is my MacBook Pro. I wonder if he’s going to smoke pot. He has a long vacation until he has to go back to work. I don’t think he would, though, because he’s not like that. But that’s why everyone wants to go to Amsterdam, at least the dumb people I know… or used to know. If I went to Amsterdam, I can guarantee that I would not smoke pot. I hate pot. It gives me really bad anxiety. I smoked it with Emily a while ago, and I only did it because she gave me some anxiety pills to take before we smoked it. Pot used to be great when I was younger, but not anymore. I quit when I was 16. Lots of people that used to smoke pot tell me the same thing. They say that they don’t like it anymore because it makes them paranoid. It makes me paranoid too, but it’s more like anxiety.

I don’t know how I was able to eat a lot of chili last night, when the day before I was throwing up ice cream. I have ate solid stuff a few times, but most of the time I can’t. Maybe I’ll try to get some sushi tonight. My band is really so tight in the morning. I can’t eat anything in the mornings. It hurts when I take large sips in the morning. It was so weird that I was starving after I ate it too. I probably could have ate 2 or 3 of them., and that’s a lot of food, even for someone who hasn’t had weight loss surgery. Maybe not 3 of them, but I could have ate some more. I know if I get some sushi tonight, and I can’t eat it, I’ll be forcing myself to because it is SO good.

Dude, the iPhone is a piece of SHIT!!!! I have been with AT&T/Cingular/Suncom since I was 18. That’s 7 years, and I have ALWAYS had PERFECT reception with EVERY phone I have EVER had. I have had a lot of phones too. Well, I was wondering why no one has called me today, especially my mom, and I try to make a phone call, and I have no signal. This happened the other day. Two people told me that my phone calls were going to voicemail, and I could not make any phone calls for about an hour after I woke up. Well, it’s been a while since I woke up, and still no signal. I just turned it off and back on, and then I had a signal. I just called my mom, and yeah, she tried to call, and it went right to voicemail.

I need to go shopping I never go shopping anymore. It’s because my check card is declining, and then I can’t tell my mom that I spent money I don’t have and ask her for it. I am going to try it right now online. I am going to try to buy the Projekt Revolution tickets. Grrrrr it declined. I got one overdraft fee, and now it declines. It did this once before, and then it started working again. I know… I am so bad. OMG, I wasn’t even paying attention. A $6.00 parking fee and an $8.95 convenience fee, for each ticket! What a rip off. So two $20.95 tickets were $70.00. WTF is a convenience fee? Because I am buying them online? My stupid electric company charges that when you pay your bill online. You’d think it would be easier on them if you pay it online.

God, this stupid guy I met keeps asking me if he can come over almost every day. I keep telling him I have a boyfriend, and his whole agenda last time he came over was to make out with me, but I didn’t. Then when I was mad at Steve the other day he said we should date. It’s so funny how much more guys like me now. I thought I would be bitter about it and think “they wouldn’t have liked me when I was fat”, but I don’t really care. One time he said “we can just lie in bed and talk” haha.

I don’t take pictures of myself still…. like full body pictures. I still feel SO fat. When I look in the mirror I don’t see that I have lost any weight, especially in my face, but people tell me I have lost a lot in my face. Maybe I have, but my face is still so fat. I wish I could get liposuction on my face. I wish I could get a boob job and a tummy tuck. I will be able to get a boob job after I lose all my weight. For that, I am definitely going to quit smoking. Only because I could barely breathe when I woke up from my last surgery, and they had to gave me some asthma medicine, and because you get cut big time, and you don’t heal as well when you smoke. I just looked it up. They gave me Albuterol. My mom’s friend that had gastric bypass just got the skin removed from her arms, that’s it, and it cost $8,000. Insurance will pay for tummy tucks and full body lifts sometimes, but I don’t think mine is severe enough. I’ve lost a little bit in my boobs, but not much. My old bras were wayyyy to big on me though.

All the new Victoria Secret underwear I bought, they won’t stay on me. They fall down, ask Steve. It pisses me off because it’s not like you can give your underwear away lol. If I can’t use something, it makes me feel better to give it away, so I feel like I totally didn’t waste the money. Even if it’s to a thrift store. I don’t like wasting money, even though I do it all the time. I take REALLY good care of my belongings. I never lose or ruin anything, unlike my brother. It pisses me off so bad still that my GPS was stolen. I don’t want to buy another one because I already bought one, and it doesn’t feel right. I don’t even listen to my iPod in my car anymore because I am scared I will forget to take it in, and whoever broke into my car probably saw my AM/FM transmitter (if they realized what it was. they could have thought it was a cellphone charger). I am surprised they didn’t steal that. Thieves will take whatever they can get. I think stealing is SOOOOOO wrong. I don’t steal from stores or anything, but that doesn’t bother me as much because they rip you off anyways. I would never steal from a store because I wouldn’t want to get caught, but if you could guarantee that I wouldn’t get caught, I’d probably do it. I think it is SOOOOOOOOO wrong to steal from a person though. People work hard for what they have. I buy stuff that I don’t have the money for, so it pisses me off even more.

It’s probably because I have seen my parents work SO hard for what they have. They had shitty jobs when I was younger and worked their way up, and they are HARD workers. They worked for and deserve every single thing they own. That’s a lot more than I can say for myself. They never asked anyone for money, and they go to work every single day and work their asses off. Now they don’t work as much because they have better jobs, but they still work hard. I wonder why it didn’t rub off on me. Probably because my mom gives me anything and everything I want. Even when we were poor, both of my parents always made sure we had everything, and put my brother and I before them. They always called me selfish. I don’t think they meant with material things either. I am selfish because I expect everything from everybody, and I don’t mean money. My brother turned out A LOT better than I did. I don’t think it’s always the way you were raised that determines the adult you become. I have seen people come from shitty homes, and they turn out great. I have seen people come from great homes, and they turn out all fucked up. I have seen people with great brothers and sisters, but they are all fucked up. Emily’s sister is a lot like me. She expects everything from her mom and doesn’t work, but Emily works really hard.

Well, I am going to get some money from my mom Seriously. Bye bye.

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Jjjksad

You would think I’d take more pictures of myself now that I am skinnier. I only take pictures with my webcam because I can see how it is going to look. I am the same size as Christy, and I always thought she looks skinny. I am still hard on myself.

Andy woke me up a million times. I don’t know why, but he is shaking constantly. Not shaking like he is nervous, shaking like dogs shake when they get wet. It happened one time before. I think it has to do with his crate because I put him in it for the first time in a long time last night. The other time he was also in his crate. He was doing it when he got out too. I mean non-stop. I am thinking it’s because he itches, but my dogs most definitely do not have fleas. He is sleeping now and has stopped.

I am so tired. I couldn’t sleep well last night. Maybe because I took a nap until 12am. I don’t know what I am going to do today. I am NOT going shopping. Okay… maybe I will. No… I won’t.

You know how I kind of have a shopping problem? My parents left all their life insurance money to my brother lol. He is supposed to give me a certain amount each month. I don’t even know how much he is supposed to give me. My mom has crap for life insurance since she has had cancer (skin cancer). My dad has a lot. I know my brother would give me the money. He is honest and trustworthy and loves me and my mom more than anything in the world. I also get my brother’s life insurance, after my mom, if he ever died.

I think I need a new wireless router. The one I have wouldn’t even work with Tiger. I know that because they gave me my MacBook Pro with it on there and the upgrade CD. It works with Leopard but goes out a lot. It’s not enough of an annoyance to buy a new one. It only happens every once in a while, but it has been happening a lot this morning. I hate when it happens at night and I am signed on AIM. AIM for Mac makes a noise when you connect, and it will wake me up when it is trying to reconnect.

Andrew is leaving tomorrow, and I don’t think he has time to come see me. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to feel. I was wayyyy more upset when Chris broke up with me, so maybe I’ll be okay. I am 100% over Chris now. It’s just so hard to get over him and continue to talk to him and see him. I won’t be seeing him anymore, but I’ll still be talking to him. When Chris and I first broke up, he moved in with two of his friends that I HATED!!!! So I never went to see him once. Then he ended up moving to Arizona, and I had no phone number for him, so it was easy. Dede went to NY and left the country to play soccer. But I still feel like it’s the end of the world with Andrew. I feel like I will never get over him. I know I will because you always do, but I hate feeling this way right now.

I can’t wait to go to NY. My aunt is great. Everyone always feel sorry for me and pays for me to come see them lol. TJ did it so I could go to Japan, Babz has done it multiple times for me to go see her near DC, and my aunt just did it.

I am bored. I don’t want to end this post. I don’t want to go back to the mall. People that work there are getting to know me. Yesterday the girl at Mac asked me if I was feeling better. I told her I was having a bad day the other day. The girl at American Eagle asked me if she was going to see me everyday. It’s kind of embarrassing. There is absolutely nothing I need.

I missed my knitting class last Wednesday because Andrew upset me.

Okay. Bye.

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Manic

This website is cool. I don’t use it to prank anybody, but I just sent Andrew a message saying I love and miss him. I can’t call him today because I have talked to him all week. I am not supposed to call him as much because… well… you know… I have been psycho in the past. We are getting along great, although he was getting frustrated with me last night. He was doing stuff and I forced him to talk to me when I said we didn’t have to talk for long He was still sweet. I was crying, and he was trying to make me feel better. I was so emotional. I have had 6 hours of sleep each night for the past two. I woke up at 4am this morning, and I am manic and exhausted. I have tried to go to sleep numerous times today.

My mom took me shopping at the mall today. I found a pair of jeans I like at Steve and Berry’s. I only looked at Sarah Jessica Parker’s line last time. I didn’t realize that they have more womens clothes. The Steve and Berry’s clothes are better looking than hers. I thought she had good taste. I guess not. The jeans were on sale for $6 something. I bought 3 shirts and 4 pajama bottoms from Old Navy. The stores were close by in the mall, and I sure as hell wasn’t walking any further as tired as I was. Oh and the jeans are size 16, and they actually fit me in the legs! They are tight in the legs like they are supposed to be. Not too tight, but you know what I mean. I am going to get 3 pairs of jeans hemmed tomorrow. The shirts I bought from Old Navy are stretchy, so they should fit me for awhile. The pajamas have a stretchy waste, like all pajamas, so they should fit me for a while.

As manic as I am, I don’t really feel like talking, and that is odd.

Andrew is leaving for an unknown amount of time tomorrow It will be okay because he can’t be gone for more than 2 months (because he gets out of the Navy). I have a lot of working out to do, so I will look better next time I see him. Hopefully I’ll be in a size 12. I doubt it, but it’s nice to dream. I can’t imagine myself being skinny again. I thought I would have the surgery and it wouldn’t work. I still think it won’t work. It’s just weird. I didn’t think you could barely tell I lost weight, even after I lost 40 pounds. Now I can definitely tell. I have a bunch more clothes to get rid of. I guess I should get rid of my size 20 pants. I have a ton of shirts to get rid of. It’s so hard to give the clothes away because I am so materialistic. BRB, I am going to try on those size 20 jeans that were to small on me even when the others the same size fit me. Ha, they don’t fit me still. They seriously screwed up the size of them. They are huge in the legs and small around the waste. Maybe they are meant to be that way for people that have big legs. I will give them away. It’s was hard getting rid of my two favorite pants. They used to fit me so well, and it’s hard to find pants that fit me well.

I should just turn this into a lap-band/Andrew site.

15 year olds are so immature. My cousin and her friend came to the mall with us today. I am immature, but I at least I don’t act like I am 15. I think it may just be that I have an immature sense of humor, but I can be a major baby. My mom bought my cousin a bunch of clothes yesterday and today, and she didn’t even say thank you. My parents are huge on manners, so I am sure they will teach her soon. My cousin eats SO much food. She eats more than I could when I was a size 22. She weighs 200 pounds and she is 15. I know I am a hypocrite. She is going to be 300 pounds by the time she is my age. She also has a bad habit of wearing clothes that are too small on her.

TJ is coming home for a few days at the end of the month. He is going to start working with the Navy Seals. He has to take some classes or something here. He also gets a $75,000 reenlistment bonus. Andrew said ETs (Electronic Technicians) only get it. They pay his rent (up to $1,000 a month). I wonder why Andrew just got that and didn’t have it before. I didn’t ask him. Andrew and my brother are so smart. You can also get really good jobs after you leave the Navy. Andrew is going to do something like repairing equipment that is used to drill oil, if he gets this job that he wants. I didn’t ask him how much he gets paid, but knowing him it’s a lot because he won’t settle for a little amount of money. He wants me to make $2,000 a month when we move in together. That is not going to happen. Then he said I could get a part-time job.

I think I may be able to sleep now. But I have also thought that several times today. I guess I did feel like talking.

I am so emotional and tired, but at least I haven’t gone psycho and closed my site yet.

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Another post

I went over my parent’s house with my cousin last night. My uncle was there. They were all deciding if my parents were going to adopt her. But about 75% of the conversation was how she stole my uncle’s checkbook and got AOL and People PC without him knowing. He was charged for People PC for 1 year and 6 months. He was charged for AOL longer because she said she got it before People PC. AOL wouldn’t give us any info on the account since we told them it was fraud. He never knew until this month that she had done this. He didn’t have enough money in the bank this month, and he was charged 5 overdraft fees because they kept trying to take the money out over and over!!!!!!!!! Everyone was so pissed about it.

Anyways, my parents got custody of her today. She is moving in there tomorrow. Well, she’ll probably get all her stuff this weekend.

I don’t feel like writing. I wrote the first paragraph to Andrew and copied and pasted it.

I have to go to the grocery store and go get my crazy meds.

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I am going to jail :(

I bought a pair of cute Calvin Klein khaki pants from the thrift store. They are a size 12, but they’ll fit me soon. I couldn’t find anything else in my size that I liked. The pants were $2.50 cents!!!! They said $5.00 on them, but I guess they were on sale or something. I volunteered there also. I am just kidding, but I was straightening out the clothes while I looked at them. I would take a picture of them, but they’re in the washer. They didn’t have much of a selection, but I did see some things that I wished were my size. I have a very bad habit of changing the subject back and forth in a paragraph. Sorry.

I wrote that earlier. I am home now, and I just did something HIGHLY illegal. I am pretty sure it’s a felony. I think it could be a misdemeanor too, depending. I didn’t steal anything, and it doesn’t have anything to do with drugs. I asked Andrew if he’d bail me out of jail. “What if I don’t”, he said. I said “then you are in big trouble.”

My parents are adopting my cousin. Or I should say getting legal guardianship or whatever it’s called. She is moving in with them. She has to switch schools and is real upset about that.

I am going to turn all the lights off, stare out the window and wait for the cops to come, like a crack head.

I was just about to post this when my aunt called me (my mom’s sister). She just got back from working in India (she’s an engineer), and she told me some really crazy stories about that place. I am not going to type it all out, but one thing she couldn’t do is open her eyes or mouth when she was in the shower because the water is so dirty. There was crazier stuff.

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Clean

My mom came over and scrubbed EVERY INCH of my kitchen, and I am ashamed to say that it was fucking disgusting. You could eat off of every surface in there now, not that I would. I pick up after myself, but I am so bad about scrubbing stuff. I also got new blinds for the kitchen and bedroom. It was SO hard to get the kitchen ones up. They were too small, so I had to re-screw the holder things to the top of the window. I still need to move the left one over. They are barley just sitting in there. Do you know how hard it is to screw something in from the bottom? My cousin and I were taking turns. Of course my dad can’t help because he would shit if he saw my new furniture. He knows that I can’t afford it, so he would know that my mom bought it for me. He would be SO pissed at her.

Andrew’s fucking phone is still off. I shouldn’t freak out, because he may stay there longer because it’s about to be New Years. He went with his parent’s, so they will probably have to come home after New Years to go to work (they’re nurses). He has 10 days off. If it’s off for longer, then I will know something is up. I am not paranoid about him being with a girl or anything. I would know he forgot his charger when he went to his parent’s or something. I actually think he did because he would turn is phone on to check his messages, like before when he was ignoring me for a few days lol. If you go to the Verizon Wireless website, and you send a text message, it will show you when the message has been delivered, and it doesn’t deliver the message while your phone is off. Verizon customers are easy to stalk. Not as easy to stalk as Cingular customers, though (lol it’s a secret). It’s the secret that made Andrew think I am even more psycho. I am, I am. But this thing is just immature fun. I could care less about the person I am stalking on it. He never told that person either. He is great.

I want some food that is bad for you I don’t have any, so it won’t be happening. My mom asked me if I wanted pizza today, and I said no. I lost another pound. I am going to call my doctor’s office tomorrow, if they are open, and ask them if I can come get my band filled before my next appointment. It is not filled enough. I just made a glass of fiber. I am supposed to drink 3 glasses a day. It is too much to drink 2-3 glasses of protein and 3 glasses of fiber.

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Blah

I need to change my payment due date for one of my credit cards and my car insurance. Capital One said the wait was longer than 10 minutes, but someone picked up in less than two. It is absolutely ridiculous that Capital One has no option on talking to customer service. You hit “0″ and it tells you it’s not an option, but if you hit it over and over they will transfer you to someone. I hate calling places that have a million menus to go through. I always want to talk to someone because most of the time, there is not option for what I want.

I didn’t even gain one pound from eating not so healthy on Christmas Eve and Christmas. I don’t know why the hell I gained 4 pounds on Thanksgiving, and I ate less. I am guessing it’s because I hadn’t got my band filled yet, and they said you may gain weight before you get your band filled. I really don’t know.

Emily will be here today. Yayyyy. I’ll just call her once, since she is driving. Actually, she doesn’t mind driving and talking on the cell phone. But I know she won’t want to because her mom and sister will be in the car with her. Her sister and mom are staying at her aunts house.

My mom has been FREAKING out all day today. First she called Wachovia because she never got a bill for her mortgage. They told her that she hasn’t paid it in 3 months and she called me being all rude and crying. She NEVER pays one bill late. It is so important to her. I can understand how important a mortgage payment is, for your credit and a roof over your head. But they fixed it. Now she is freaking out this second because my dad went to the bank an hour and a half ago, and he’s not home yet. It’s raining really bad here so she thinks he has gotten in a car accident. She freaks out over stuff more than me. She just worries about everything, and it really gets on my nerves because she is always a bitch to me. Now were back to the I can’t have money anymore. I asked her for my Bank of America credit card, and she freaked out. I need money to do stuff with Emily while she is here. I am not going to go on a shopping spree, or even shopping.

My brother called me yesterday. Today is his 23rd birthday. He told me that Stephanie claimed she was pregnant. They used a condom, but one broke. She said that she went to the doctor and got a pregnancy test and an ultrasound, and they told her that she was pregnant. Then my mom told her how it was, and she emailed TJ and said “I got my period; you are off the hook”. How can you get a pregnancy test (especially if it was a blood test) and not be pregnant. That I may be able to understand, at least if it was a pee test, but I don’t think you can see a baby in an ultrasound that isn’t there. I doubt any of this is true, but I am wondering if my brother didn’t use a condom, and he just didn’t want to tell us. I also wonder if she really is pregnant but she doesn’t want to tell TJ. I seriously doubt that one. She is a pathological liar. How can people be like that? I feel so stupid when I get caught in a lie, not that I do it very often, then I always admit the truth because I don’t want to lie to get out of some dumb lie for a long time. I have lied to Andrew before to cover my ass and to piss him off, but he knows the truth now. I don’t ever lie to my friends. I lie to my mom to cover my ass, mostly when it comes to money. I lie when people ask me if something makes them look fat.

I can’t get my Bluetooth headset to connect to my phone They both are Motorola. I will call support today, but I seriously doubt that I am doing anything wrong. It is really simple. It’s probably not compatible. Actually, I won’t call support today. I have to wait to go to my mom’s to user her phone. I am not using my Sidekick at 20 cents a minute, and I can’t use the phone I want to connect it to.

My parents wouldn’t bring my desk chair over last night They told me they would bring it today, but it is raining. It won’t fit on my car. Hmmmm, I wonder if it will if I put the passenger seat down. I don’t want to carry it out in the rain, so I guess I’ll wait. I actually never sit in my desk chair anymore, now that I have a laptop.

I’m going to clean so it will be clean in here when Emily gets here.

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I am blessed

Christmas was great. Christy’s dad is really nice. He flew in from CA because that’s where he lives. His flight got delayed, and it took him 13 hours to get here. That is a whole freaking flight to Japan. Bryan loved his cars and everything he got. Kam especially loved her Roxy purse and this fucking annoying as shit FurReal Bird. She played with the bird ALL DAY LONG, and she would not go anywhere without it.

My mom got me a fucking plunger because honestly, I borrowed hers because I was flushing Clorox Wipes down my toilet and it got clogged. My toilet never gets clogged. Kind of embarrassing. Christy’s dad also had to take a picture of me holding the plunger. I hate pictures of me, and me holding a plunger is even worse. She wasted money buying a nice plunger as a joke. I don’t even need one. It’s going in my closet where the water heater is.

I got some REALLY NICE stuff. I feel very blessed and felt bad for all the kids that didn’t get presents today.

That thing that I was wondering about… I had NO clue what it was. I would have never guessed it in a million years. It is the nicest real leather (even smells like leather) desk chair. I always tell my parents how much I like their desk chair.

These are some of my favorite presents. I was so jealous when my mom told me that my brother bought her a Coach purse, AND HE BOUGHT ME ONE TOO. I am so over my large Coach purse. I would have never bought another one either because they’re too expensive. Christy got me the Victoria’s Secret pajamas. My mom bought me the slippers that match. My mom also bought me a brown Coach wallet before she knew that my brother bought me a black Coach purse.

My brother bought me this perfume, and it smells really good.

My mom knew my favorite sheets to get me. I have two pairs already, but I burnt a hole in one of them. I probably won’t throw them away because I can justify throwing away sheets with a cigarette burn on them.

I really do believe that it’s the thought that counts, but the award for the worst gift goes to my uncle. I HATE Christmas stuff for Christmas, and they are really ugly. It’s a set of Christmas towels. I don’t want to throw them away, but I will never use them… even next Christmas.

I got a bunch of other things like a fragrance diffuser, linen spray, body wash and lotion from Christy’s dad, a bluetooth headset, workout pants (Yes! I had to buy a large and not and XL), Victoria’s Secret shampoo and body spray. I felt bad because Christy and Jake told my mom not to buy her dad anything because he will feel bad and he’s probably not getting us anything. But he bought me the lotion set any my parents candy. My mom did get him $10.00 worth of lottery tickets anyways. She thought that she had to get him something, and she didn’t want to make him feel bad.

The gifts I gave are:

The most ridiculous one - Andrew- A PS3
Emily- An iPod (she will be here tomorrow)
Christy- A margarita mix set thing
Jake- A Best Buy gift card
Kam- A big fuzzy thing you color with markers
Bryan- An outfit

Christy and Jake got my mom a chocolate fondue fountain thing (crazy, but she wanted it) and a robe. I know she’ll never use the chocolate thing, but she seriously asked for it. They got my dad a gift certificate to Dick’s Sporting Goods because that’s where he gets all his clothes.

The kids got a million fucking toys from my mom and dad. Christy and Jake got Kam a Nintendo DS and a bunch of other stuff for Kam and Bryan.

Sorry I just had to type all of that out. I LOVE Christmas so much. I am still like a little kid. My parents love Christmas more than me, and that’s probably where I get it from. Their house is full of Christmas stuff, but they usually never buy each other anything.

One more picture. Our table for Christmas: (the table kind of looks pretty, but there’s too much shit going on)

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Merry Christmas!

Of course I was up at 6am because I’m still like a little kid. It’s 7 now. I wonder if my parents are awake. They’ll probably kill me if I call them, so I’ll wait until 8. Actually, I wish I could go back to sleep.

I will celebrate by writing about Andrew. Come on, you have to forgive me, it’s Christmas.

I tried that Barenjager. It’s not honey rum like I was saying it was. He was talking about another bottle he has. Anyways, I hated it. Of course it was too strong for me. I’ll stick with Jegermeister and Red Bull. I should bring some wine over my parents, but I will probably be too tired to drink. The two times I drank wine, I didn’t even get drunk, but I didn’t drink that much. I get sick of it fast.

The other night I was being retarded and asked Andrew if he would ever smoke crack. I don’t think I said that exactly, but I said something similar. He looked at me all funny and said that he thought I was going to pull crack out of my drawer or something. I was just telling him that I would never be with him if he smoked crack. I don’t care that I like to abuse prescription drugs or if my friends do it, but I would never be with a guy that does drugs. I love him so much, but if he used drugs, I would never be with him. And I hope he knows me better than that. I would never smoke crack.

Leslie, if you read this, can you tell me if Ambien will show up in a drug test. It’s not for me; it’s for Andrew. He thinks that if he takes an Ambien that he will get busted by the Navy. It’s probably really dumb for him to. He will be high for like 5 minutes than fall asleep. I’m just saying it would suck for me. Knowing him, he will sleep for like 15 hours. He already sleeps a lot. Not on the weekdays, but he does on the weekends. He gets like 5 hours of sleep every weekday. I have no clue how he does it. He slept for 10 hours while he was over here. I kept hoping that he would wake up.

He really liked his Christmas present. BTW, it was a PS3. I am surprised he took it because he told me so many times that he didn’t want it.

You’re going to come over to get your present, right? You can’t really say no because I bought it for you already

No. I told you to not buy me anything and I don’t want anything

Well, you should come over anyways. You said that we’ll see how things go. And you never told me on the phone that you wouldn’t come get it, so it’s kind of mean for you not to. You had your chance to tell me on the phone, plenty of times.

But I never said I would come over to get it. And I did tell you not to buy me anything several times

Do you have any ideas about what your Christmas present is? I think I gave away too many hints.

$500+ is too much to spend on me

Well, fine, if I spend less will you come and get it? I’ll get you something from the dollar store… like you wanted.

I meant the only hint I have is that is cost over $500

He guessed what it was before he came over, but I lied to him and told him it wasn’t that. Everyone gave me such a hard time because I bought it for him, but it made me happy. I am not trying to buy his love; it just makes me happy. He even sent back everything I bought him before when we got in a fight. I bet he wouldn’t send that back to me, though lol.

Ummm there’s more stuff that I wanted to blog about, but I didn’t because everyone hates when I talk about him. I can’t remember now.

I just have to say something about the dumbest question I was EVER asked. Emily asked me that if someone farts around you, and you smell it, if you can get colon cancer in your nose from it. That has to be the dumbest thing I have ever heard.

15 more minutes until I can call my mom and dad.

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Damn it, my mom must be on the other line because her answering machine didn’t pick up. She is probably talking to my brother. I can’t just go over there because whatever that big present is, it’s under the Christmas tree unwrapped. They said it’s too large to wrap.
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OMG

TJ got my mom a Coach purse and a $120.00 bottle of perfume for Christmas. She said I am going to LOVE what he got me. He really is the best. He always buys us nice stuff for Christmas. He buys me stuff all year long. He even flew me out to Japan!!!! Seriously, my brother is the sweetest guy in the world. He is such a great guy, and he is really cute, so I don’t know why he keeps picking crappy women. And he loves his family more than anything in the world.

My mom has been over her neighbors playing Wii, and now she wants one. She said she is getting herself one before she gets me one. I said that is messed up since it’s supposed to be my Christmas present. I will probably get mad if she gets herself one before she gets me one because I’m a baby like that. My dad is still over there playing it lol. The funny thing is that her neighbors are like 50-60 years old.

I am going to get ready so I can go to my mom’s house.

Merry Christmas Eve

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My mom said that I can’t come over for another hour because she is doing something with one of my gifts.

You know what I never understood. I don’t understand why people that don’t believe in Jesus and the Christian God celebrate Christmas. I don’t think you should exchange gifts at all or anything. Emily says that she is celebrating gift giving. Well why the fuck don’t you pick another day to celebrate gift giving? Christmas is celebrating the birth of Jesus.

I can think of 3 people that read my site that aren’t Christian, so I am turning the comments off. I hope I haven’t offended anyone, and I don’t want any rude comments about it. I know the people that I can think of wouldn’t leave rude comments, but I don’t know if someone else would. Call me a pussy, but I don’t feel like arguing about it, and that’s why I turned the comments off on the post about proof that God does exist. I think it’s a pointless argument because it’s not going to change anyones mind. It’s just an argument, and as much as I hate that people celebrate it, I can see their point of view too. So I guess I can kind of understand why. If I didn’t believe in the Christian God, I’d probably celebrate it too. So I am kind of stupid for saying this. Oh well… fuck it all. Haha, Andrew says that all the time. The “fuck it all” part. I love my language in a post about God. Oh well… fuck it all.

Andrew has duty tomorrow (Christmas), and I feel bad for him. That’s what he gets for not believing in God and celebrating Christmas lol. I’m just kidding.

Why do the weather commercials have to tease us? They said “watch 13 news at 5 to see if were going to have a white Christmas.” The temperature isn’t even going to be close enough to snow. They just want people to watch it.

My mom just called and said that I can come over now. Bye bye

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