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Manic

This website is cool. I don’t use it to prank anybody, but I just sent Andrew a message saying I love and miss him. I can’t call him today because I have talked to him all week. I am not supposed to call him as much because… well… you know… I have been psycho in the past. We are getting along great, although he was getting frustrated with me last night. He was doing stuff and I forced him to talk to me when I said we didn’t have to talk for long He was still sweet. I was crying, and he was trying to make me feel better. I was so emotional. I have had 6 hours of sleep each night for the past two. I woke up at 4am this morning, and I am manic and exhausted. I have tried to go to sleep numerous times today.

My mom took me shopping at the mall today. I found a pair of jeans I like at Steve and Berry’s. I only looked at Sarah Jessica Parker’s line last time. I didn’t realize that they have more womens clothes. The Steve and Berry’s clothes are better looking than hers. I thought she had good taste. I guess not. The jeans were on sale for $6 something. I bought 3 shirts and 4 pajama bottoms from Old Navy. The stores were close by in the mall, and I sure as hell wasn’t walking any further as tired as I was. Oh and the jeans are size 16, and they actually fit me in the legs! They are tight in the legs like they are supposed to be. Not too tight, but you know what I mean. I am going to get 3 pairs of jeans hemmed tomorrow. The shirts I bought from Old Navy are stretchy, so they should fit me for awhile. The pajamas have a stretchy waste, like all pajamas, so they should fit me for a while.

As manic as I am, I don’t really feel like talking, and that is odd.

Andrew is leaving for an unknown amount of time tomorrow It will be okay because he can’t be gone for more than 2 months (because he gets out of the Navy). I have a lot of working out to do, so I will look better next time I see him. Hopefully I’ll be in a size 12. I doubt it, but it’s nice to dream. I can’t imagine myself being skinny again. I thought I would have the surgery and it wouldn’t work. I still think it won’t work. It’s just weird. I didn’t think you could barely tell I lost weight, even after I lost 40 pounds. Now I can definitely tell. I have a bunch more clothes to get rid of. I guess I should get rid of my size 20 pants. I have a ton of shirts to get rid of. It’s so hard to give the clothes away because I am so materialistic. BRB, I am going to try on those size 20 jeans that were to small on me even when the others the same size fit me. Ha, they don’t fit me still. They seriously screwed up the size of them. They are huge in the legs and small around the waste. Maybe they are meant to be that way for people that have big legs. I will give them away. It’s was hard getting rid of my two favorite pants. They used to fit me so well, and it’s hard to find pants that fit me well.

I should just turn this into a lap-band/Andrew site.

15 year olds are so immature. My cousin and her friend came to the mall with us today. I am immature, but I at least I don’t act like I am 15. I think it may just be that I have an immature sense of humor, but I can be a major baby. My mom bought my cousin a bunch of clothes yesterday and today, and she didn’t even say thank you. My parents are huge on manners, so I am sure they will teach her soon. My cousin eats SO much food. She eats more than I could when I was a size 22. She weighs 200 pounds and she is 15. I know I am a hypocrite. She is going to be 300 pounds by the time she is my age. She also has a bad habit of wearing clothes that are too small on her.

TJ is coming home for a few days at the end of the month. He is going to start working with the Navy Seals. He has to take some classes or something here. He also gets a $75,000 reenlistment bonus. Andrew said ETs (Electronic Technicians) only get it. They pay his rent (up to $1,000 a month). I wonder why Andrew just got that and didn’t have it before. I didn’t ask him. Andrew and my brother are so smart. You can also get really good jobs after you leave the Navy. Andrew is going to do something like repairing equipment that is used to drill oil, if he gets this job that he wants. I didn’t ask him how much he gets paid, but knowing him it’s a lot because he won’t settle for a little amount of money. He wants me to make $2,000 a month when we move in together. That is not going to happen. Then he said I could get a part-time job.

I think I may be able to sleep now. But I have also thought that several times today. I guess I did feel like talking.

I am so emotional and tired, but at least I haven’t gone psycho and closed my site yet.

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Another post

I went over my parent’s house with my cousin last night. My uncle was there. They were all deciding if my parents were going to adopt her. But about 75% of the conversation was how she stole my uncle’s checkbook and got AOL and People PC without him knowing. He was charged for People PC for 1 year and 6 months. He was charged for AOL longer because she said she got it before People PC. AOL wouldn’t give us any info on the account since we told them it was fraud. He never knew until this month that she had done this. He didn’t have enough money in the bank this month, and he was charged 5 overdraft fees because they kept trying to take the money out over and over!!!!!!!!! Everyone was so pissed about it.

Anyways, my parents got custody of her today. She is moving in there tomorrow. Well, she’ll probably get all her stuff this weekend.

I don’t feel like writing. I wrote the first paragraph to Andrew and copied and pasted it.

I have to go to the grocery store and go get my crazy meds.

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I am going to jail :(

I bought a pair of cute Calvin Klein khaki pants from the thrift store. They are a size 12, but they’ll fit me soon. I couldn’t find anything else in my size that I liked. The pants were $2.50 cents!!!! They said $5.00 on them, but I guess they were on sale or something. I volunteered there also. I am just kidding, but I was straightening out the clothes while I looked at them. I would take a picture of them, but they’re in the washer. They didn’t have much of a selection, but I did see some things that I wished were my size. I have a very bad habit of changing the subject back and forth in a paragraph. Sorry.

I wrote that earlier. I am home now, and I just did something HIGHLY illegal. I am pretty sure it’s a felony. I think it could be a misdemeanor too, depending. I didn’t steal anything, and it doesn’t have anything to do with drugs. I asked Andrew if he’d bail me out of jail. “What if I don’t”, he said. I said “then you are in big trouble.”

My parents are adopting my cousin. Or I should say getting legal guardianship or whatever it’s called. She is moving in with them. She has to switch schools and is real upset about that.

I am going to turn all the lights off, stare out the window and wait for the cops to come, like a crack head.

I was just about to post this when my aunt called me (my mom’s sister). She just got back from working in India (she’s an engineer), and she told me some really crazy stories about that place. I am not going to type it all out, but one thing she couldn’t do is open her eyes or mouth when she was in the shower because the water is so dirty. There was crazier stuff.

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Nooooooooo

I am so bad I just spent money at drugstore.com. I ordered my favorite leave in conditioner (Biolage) and 26 ounces of Milk of Magnesia lol. I haven’t gone poop in a week, but I just took some ex-lax. I read some stuff on the Lap-Band forum, and I am not the only person with this problem. Lots of people recommended Milk of Magnesia. Do I really need conditioner that bad? Do I need it more than people or animals need a home or food?

Did you guys know that Sharon Osborne had Lap-Band surgery???!!!??? I heard that she had weight loss surgery a long time ago, but I didn’t know it was Lap-Band. She had it taken out, though. I just read that she lost 125 pounds from it.

I need to get rid of all my clothes that don’t fit me. My mom says to give them to the thrift store, but they are so expensive. I probably will anyways. I could sell them on eBay. Not one at a time, but all of them together. I’ve seen people do that. I probably have 10 pairs, and they were all $50.00 or more. The size 22s really look absolutely ridiculous on me. I will keep the size 20s and wear a belt for now. Oh yeah, I made a post on my site about how I am not going to go shopping anymore. I spend too much money, and I could give it to charities. I probably won’t do that often, but I should give my pants to the thrift store. I always take everything to this certain one. It helps run a homeless shelter. My mom used to work at a homeless shelter. She is so good with people and not judging them. She is so good with kids. I used to volunteer at the one when I was younger. I give money to PETA, and that’s about it. PETA is the charity I will definitely donate money to. I love animals so much, and I think it’s great that they go to the extreme for them. People joke them and think that they overreact, but I don’t think that… at all. I would love to volunteer for PETA, but the office is too far away. It’s in Norfolk. I would do it even if they gave me some shitty ass job like stuffing envelopes. I would pick up dog poop. They don’t have dogs there, though. I could volunteer at the SPCA. My old boss worked there, but now he has some job working in web development for the government. He could still help me, though. Even if it’s only one day a week, I would be happy.

When my mom used to work at the homeless shelter, she would take me there sometimes. I loved it because there were a lot of mentally ill people there. I didn’t make fun of them, but some of them were FUNNY A SHIT. I know it’s serious and it’s a hard life for them, but I don’t see any harm in laughing. This one guy was real crazy. He was black and used to wear necklaces like Mr T. He looked like him. He was schizophrenic. I even remember his laugh. He laughed all the time. He was was so funny, and I felt like I really liked these people. I loved talking to them and everything. It is SO cold out today, and I can’t help but think of people that have to sleep outside. It’s 32 degrees out right now.

Okay, I am going to watch godtube. I know that I am acting weird.

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Clean

My mom came over and scrubbed EVERY INCH of my kitchen, and I am ashamed to say that it was fucking disgusting. You could eat off of every surface in there now, not that I would. I pick up after myself, but I am so bad about scrubbing stuff. I also got new blinds for the kitchen and bedroom. It was SO hard to get the kitchen ones up. They were too small, so I had to re-screw the holder things to the top of the window. I still need to move the left one over. They are barley just sitting in there. Do you know how hard it is to screw something in from the bottom? My cousin and I were taking turns. Of course my dad can’t help because he would shit if he saw my new furniture. He knows that I can’t afford it, so he would know that my mom bought it for me. He would be SO pissed at her.

Andrew’s fucking phone is still off. I shouldn’t freak out, because he may stay there longer because it’s about to be New Years. He went with his parent’s, so they will probably have to come home after New Years to go to work (they’re nurses). He has 10 days off. If it’s off for longer, then I will know something is up. I am not paranoid about him being with a girl or anything. I would know he forgot his charger when he went to his parent’s or something. I actually think he did because he would turn is phone on to check his messages, like before when he was ignoring me for a few days lol. If you go to the Verizon Wireless website, and you send a text message, it will show you when the message has been delivered, and it doesn’t deliver the message while your phone is off. Verizon customers are easy to stalk. Not as easy to stalk as Cingular customers, though (lol it’s a secret). It’s the secret that made Andrew think I am even more psycho. I am, I am. But this thing is just immature fun. I could care less about the person I am stalking on it. He never told that person either. He is great.

I want some food that is bad for you I don’t have any, so it won’t be happening. My mom asked me if I wanted pizza today, and I said no. I lost another pound. I am going to call my doctor’s office tomorrow, if they are open, and ask them if I can come get my band filled before my next appointment. It is not filled enough. I just made a glass of fiber. I am supposed to drink 3 glasses a day. It is too much to drink 2-3 glasses of protein and 3 glasses of fiber.

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I am in such a bad mood

I’ve been trying to call my mom all day, and she finally just answered.

Emily pissed me off, so I pissed her off. I told her not to come back, and she did to say bye.

Andrew’s fucking phone is off, and I know it’s because he is visiting family in NY, and I know it’s because he doesn’t want to talk to me while he is there, but he can at least answer and tell me that he is busy.

I just got back from Sarah’s, and she didn’t piss me off. But there was thins guy in front of me in the fast lane. He was swerving all over. I was flashing my lights at him because he was doing 60mph, and I finally was able to pass him and he started to speed up like he was pissed that I passed him. Did he get past me? No!

I am so stressed out. I am going to bitch Andrew out when I talk to him. No… I will say it nicely, because I cannot be psycho, but I want to bitch him out. I probably won’t be able to talk to him until Monday. He better have forgot his charger or something.

His phone has been off all day. I only tried to call him twice, but I have a way of knowing if it’s off or on. He knows this too.

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Tired

I am tired, but yesterday, I slept ALL day. Emily went to Richmond. I had all my Lamictal that I am supposed to have, my Geodon that I am supposed to have, one extra Trazodone, and 6 1mg Ativans. I woke up and I was still high. I don’t remember a thing Emily told me. I woke up for like 5 minutes when she was here.

I got two bills from my surgery. One for $158.00 from the hospital, and one for $57.00 from the Anesthesiologist. I guess I can’t complain after two bills I got totaling $25,000. It still sucks because I am broke.

Emily was real high after she took Ativan. She was talking crazy. I told her that Andrew’s roommate is hot, but he is married. She told me buy him a fish tank and put an eel in it, and he will look at it and think how cool I am and how much I love pets. I didn’t get high after I took it because I went right to bed. She is the only one I talk to about Andrew, besides my mom sometimes, and besides on here. Sarah is the one that usually asks me about him. Christy doesn’t like to talk about him, but she will ask me things sometimes.

Anyways, I don’t feel like talking about him.

I got the Sims 2 yesterday. It’s a lot better than the first one and a lot easier. You don’t have to tell them to do every fucking thing. They will do a lot of things on their own.

I am going to take a shower. Emily should be here soon.

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Blah

I need to change my payment due date for one of my credit cards and my car insurance. Capital One said the wait was longer than 10 minutes, but someone picked up in less than two. It is absolutely ridiculous that Capital One has no option on talking to customer service. You hit “0″ and it tells you it’s not an option, but if you hit it over and over they will transfer you to someone. I hate calling places that have a million menus to go through. I always want to talk to someone because most of the time, there is not option for what I want.

I didn’t even gain one pound from eating not so healthy on Christmas Eve and Christmas. I don’t know why the hell I gained 4 pounds on Thanksgiving, and I ate less. I am guessing it’s because I hadn’t got my band filled yet, and they said you may gain weight before you get your band filled. I really don’t know.

Emily will be here today. Yayyyy. I’ll just call her once, since she is driving. Actually, she doesn’t mind driving and talking on the cell phone. But I know she won’t want to because her mom and sister will be in the car with her. Her sister and mom are staying at her aunts house.

My mom has been FREAKING out all day today. First she called Wachovia because she never got a bill for her mortgage. They told her that she hasn’t paid it in 3 months and she called me being all rude and crying. She NEVER pays one bill late. It is so important to her. I can understand how important a mortgage payment is, for your credit and a roof over your head. But they fixed it. Now she is freaking out this second because my dad went to the bank an hour and a half ago, and he’s not home yet. It’s raining really bad here so she thinks he has gotten in a car accident. She freaks out over stuff more than me. She just worries about everything, and it really gets on my nerves because she is always a bitch to me. Now were back to the I can’t have money anymore. I asked her for my Bank of America credit card, and she freaked out. I need money to do stuff with Emily while she is here. I am not going to go on a shopping spree, or even shopping.

My brother called me yesterday. Today is his 23rd birthday. He told me that Stephanie claimed she was pregnant. They used a condom, but one broke. She said that she went to the doctor and got a pregnancy test and an ultrasound, and they told her that she was pregnant. Then my mom told her how it was, and she emailed TJ and said “I got my period; you are off the hook”. How can you get a pregnancy test (especially if it was a blood test) and not be pregnant. That I may be able to understand, at least if it was a pee test, but I don’t think you can see a baby in an ultrasound that isn’t there. I doubt any of this is true, but I am wondering if my brother didn’t use a condom, and he just didn’t want to tell us. I also wonder if she really is pregnant but she doesn’t want to tell TJ. I seriously doubt that one. She is a pathological liar. How can people be like that? I feel so stupid when I get caught in a lie, not that I do it very often, then I always admit the truth because I don’t want to lie to get out of some dumb lie for a long time. I have lied to Andrew before to cover my ass and to piss him off, but he knows the truth now. I don’t ever lie to my friends. I lie to my mom to cover my ass, mostly when it comes to money. I lie when people ask me if something makes them look fat.

I can’t get my Bluetooth headset to connect to my phone They both are Motorola. I will call support today, but I seriously doubt that I am doing anything wrong. It is really simple. It’s probably not compatible. Actually, I won’t call support today. I have to wait to go to my mom’s to user her phone. I am not using my Sidekick at 20 cents a minute, and I can’t use the phone I want to connect it to.

My parents wouldn’t bring my desk chair over last night They told me they would bring it today, but it is raining. It won’t fit on my car. Hmmmm, I wonder if it will if I put the passenger seat down. I don’t want to carry it out in the rain, so I guess I’ll wait. I actually never sit in my desk chair anymore, now that I have a laptop.

I’m going to clean so it will be clean in here when Emily gets here.

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I am blessed

Christmas was great. Christy’s dad is really nice. He flew in from CA because that’s where he lives. His flight got delayed, and it took him 13 hours to get here. That is a whole freaking flight to Japan. Bryan loved his cars and everything he got. Kam especially loved her Roxy purse and this fucking annoying as shit FurReal Bird. She played with the bird ALL DAY LONG, and she would not go anywhere without it.

My mom got me a fucking plunger because honestly, I borrowed hers because I was flushing Clorox Wipes down my toilet and it got clogged. My toilet never gets clogged. Kind of embarrassing. Christy’s dad also had to take a picture of me holding the plunger. I hate pictures of me, and me holding a plunger is even worse. She wasted money buying a nice plunger as a joke. I don’t even need one. It’s going in my closet where the water heater is.

I got some REALLY NICE stuff. I feel very blessed and felt bad for all the kids that didn’t get presents today.

That thing that I was wondering about… I had NO clue what it was. I would have never guessed it in a million years. It is the nicest real leather (even smells like leather) desk chair. I always tell my parents how much I like their desk chair.

These are some of my favorite presents. I was so jealous when my mom told me that my brother bought her a Coach purse, AND HE BOUGHT ME ONE TOO. I am so over my large Coach purse. I would have never bought another one either because they’re too expensive. Christy got me the Victoria’s Secret pajamas. My mom bought me the slippers that match. My mom also bought me a brown Coach wallet before she knew that my brother bought me a black Coach purse.

My brother bought me this perfume, and it smells really good.

My mom knew my favorite sheets to get me. I have two pairs already, but I burnt a hole in one of them. I probably won’t throw them away because I can justify throwing away sheets with a cigarette burn on them.

I really do believe that it’s the thought that counts, but the award for the worst gift goes to my uncle. I HATE Christmas stuff for Christmas, and they are really ugly. It’s a set of Christmas towels. I don’t want to throw them away, but I will never use them… even next Christmas.

I got a bunch of other things like a fragrance diffuser, linen spray, body wash and lotion from Christy’s dad, a bluetooth headset, workout pants (Yes! I had to buy a large and not and XL), Victoria’s Secret shampoo and body spray. I felt bad because Christy and Jake told my mom not to buy her dad anything because he will feel bad and he’s probably not getting us anything. But he bought me the lotion set any my parents candy. My mom did get him $10.00 worth of lottery tickets anyways. She thought that she had to get him something, and she didn’t want to make him feel bad.

The gifts I gave are:

The most ridiculous one - Andrew- A PS3
Emily- An iPod (she will be here tomorrow)
Christy- A margarita mix set thing
Jake- A Best Buy gift card
Kam- A big fuzzy thing you color with markers
Bryan- An outfit

Christy and Jake got my mom a chocolate fondue fountain thing (crazy, but she wanted it) and a robe. I know she’ll never use the chocolate thing, but she seriously asked for it. They got my dad a gift certificate to Dick’s Sporting Goods because that’s where he gets all his clothes.

The kids got a million fucking toys from my mom and dad. Christy and Jake got Kam a Nintendo DS and a bunch of other stuff for Kam and Bryan.

Sorry I just had to type all of that out. I LOVE Christmas so much. I am still like a little kid. My parents love Christmas more than me, and that’s probably where I get it from. Their house is full of Christmas stuff, but they usually never buy each other anything.

One more picture. Our table for Christmas: (the table kind of looks pretty, but there’s too much shit going on)

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Merry Christmas!

Of course I was up at 6am because I’m still like a little kid. It’s 7 now. I wonder if my parents are awake. They’ll probably kill me if I call them, so I’ll wait until 8. Actually, I wish I could go back to sleep.

I will celebrate by writing about Andrew. Come on, you have to forgive me, it’s Christmas.

I tried that Barenjager. It’s not honey rum like I was saying it was. He was talking about another bottle he has. Anyways, I hated it. Of course it was too strong for me. I’ll stick with Jegermeister and Red Bull. I should bring some wine over my parents, but I will probably be too tired to drink. The two times I drank wine, I didn’t even get drunk, but I didn’t drink that much. I get sick of it fast.

The other night I was being retarded and asked Andrew if he would ever smoke crack. I don’t think I said that exactly, but I said something similar. He looked at me all funny and said that he thought I was going to pull crack out of my drawer or something. I was just telling him that I would never be with him if he smoked crack. I don’t care that I like to abuse prescription drugs or if my friends do it, but I would never be with a guy that does drugs. I love him so much, but if he used drugs, I would never be with him. And I hope he knows me better than that. I would never smoke crack.

Leslie, if you read this, can you tell me if Ambien will show up in a drug test. It’s not for me; it’s for Andrew. He thinks that if he takes an Ambien that he will get busted by the Navy. It’s probably really dumb for him to. He will be high for like 5 minutes than fall asleep. I’m just saying it would suck for me. Knowing him, he will sleep for like 15 hours. He already sleeps a lot. Not on the weekdays, but he does on the weekends. He gets like 5 hours of sleep every weekday. I have no clue how he does it. He slept for 10 hours while he was over here. I kept hoping that he would wake up.

He really liked his Christmas present. BTW, it was a PS3. I am surprised he took it because he told me so many times that he didn’t want it.

You’re going to come over to get your present, right? You can’t really say no because I bought it for you already

No. I told you to not buy me anything and I don’t want anything

Well, you should come over anyways. You said that we’ll see how things go. And you never told me on the phone that you wouldn’t come get it, so it’s kind of mean for you not to. You had your chance to tell me on the phone, plenty of times.

But I never said I would come over to get it. And I did tell you not to buy me anything several times

Do you have any ideas about what your Christmas present is? I think I gave away too many hints.

$500+ is too much to spend on me

Well, fine, if I spend less will you come and get it? I’ll get you something from the dollar store… like you wanted.

I meant the only hint I have is that is cost over $500

He guessed what it was before he came over, but I lied to him and told him it wasn’t that. Everyone gave me such a hard time because I bought it for him, but it made me happy. I am not trying to buy his love; it just makes me happy. He even sent back everything I bought him before when we got in a fight. I bet he wouldn’t send that back to me, though lol.

Ummm there’s more stuff that I wanted to blog about, but I didn’t because everyone hates when I talk about him. I can’t remember now.

I just have to say something about the dumbest question I was EVER asked. Emily asked me that if someone farts around you, and you smell it, if you can get colon cancer in your nose from it. That has to be the dumbest thing I have ever heard.

15 more minutes until I can call my mom and dad.

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Damn it, my mom must be on the other line because her answering machine didn’t pick up. She is probably talking to my brother. I can’t just go over there because whatever that big present is, it’s under the Christmas tree unwrapped. They said it’s too large to wrap.
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