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I went to target to get grand theft auto IV. The people in front of me where buying a wii. I asked if they have some, and they did, so I said I’ll take one too. I am giving it to my parents since they have been wanting one bad. I will buy myself one tomorrow if the still have some. I didn’t have enough money to buy two They are probably going to be available a lot more since Steve just bought one the other day too.

Ummmm Andrew called me today and accused me of calling him from a private number and hanging up on him all day yesterday and at 5am this morning. I SWEAR TO GOD IT WAS NOT ME!!!!!!! If I wanted to call him, I wouldn’t block my number. I never block my number when I call anyone. I know that I can do some pretty immature things, but I don’t block my number, call people, and hang up on them. That is very immature. I am pretty sure I went to bed at 4:30am last night after I got home from the hospital. My phone was dead when I was in the hospital. It’s not like I can prove it, but I DIDN’T! I told him that is I wanted to fuck with him, I’d change the caller ID number. I do wonder who it was though. He doesn’t have any friends or anything. I was the only one that called him. It does look kind of suspicious that I was awake at like 4:30am, but it wasssssssss notttttttttt meeeeeeee! Who cares. I just hate being accused of something I didn’t do.

I have been depressed. I don’t know what’s wrong. I should be happy. I just haven’t been feeling right, like I said. I cried a lot today. I don’t feel anywhere as bad as last night though. I was kind of depressed last night, but I was feeling really weird. I don’t know if it has to do with my potassium or bipolar. I don’t know if I had an anxiety attack last night. If I did, it was a real weird one, only lasting 2 minutes. I actually tweeted that I was thirsty and I couldn’t get out of bed to get something to drink. It never showed up for some reason. Then I was tweeting that I didn’t feel good, and before I could hit submit, that is when I had to call 911.

I had an anxiety attack a couple weeks ago. I never posted about it, but I said something about it on twitter. I don’t know why all of the sudden I am feeling this way. I have been extremely depressed before. So depressed that I could not talk to anyone and thought about checking myself into a mental institution. I don’t know why all of the sudden I am having anxiety attacks. I’ve had 2 my whole life, and I was a teenager when I had them. If last night was one, it wasn’t that bad. The one I had a few weeks ago wasn’t bad either. It was like 15 minutes long, and all I did was cry, freak out a little, and my hands and feet were tingling.

I don’t know if it has something to do with me not eating or what. I bought bananas today for electrolytes. I threw it up. I bought light Gatorade with electrolytes and some yogurt. All I’ve had today is almost a glass of Gatorade, 4 crackers that I threw up, and the banana I threw up. I think I need to go get some liquid taken out of my band. Now I just don’t want to drive to Norfolk General Hospital. It’s so confusing. But yeah, I’ll go. I’ll call tomorrow. It’s hard getting your protein and 64 ounces of water.

I don’t feel so god right now. I am also wondering if it’s my anti-psychotic that is making me feel this way. Man, I feel like shit.

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Stupid surgery

I just talked to one of the bariatric nurses at my surgeons office. She said “oh yeah, that is why you felt that way”. She told me to eat bananas, yogurt, more protein, and yelled at me because I am barely drinking. She told me to get Gatorade for electrolytes, which I think I read potassium is an electrolyte. She said if the Gatorade is too sweet to mix it half with water. The two bariatric nurses they have, both had gastric bypass.

My cell phone went dead at the hospital last night They had wifi. The only person I called was Steve because I knew he was awake. I talked to my mom today, and she told me I should of called her. I didn’t want to ruin her whole day today because she would have insisted on coming there, and she would have been up all night. It was no big deal. The really bad part lasted about 2 minutes.

On the phone with 911, I was like “if something happens to me, I had weight loss surgery, lap-band.” I thought something was going to happen, and if they need to stick a tube down in my stomach, they need to use a scope.

I feel like such a baby, but it was horrible. It was even happening when I was at the ER when I was lying down. I felt like I was going to pass out. I have been feeling that way a lot. The nurse at the ER said she sees it all the time with people who have had weight loss surgery.

Well, I guess I am going to go to the grocery store and stock up on some food with potassium. The bariatric coordinator said that the multi vitamin is not enough.

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Damn, all of my posts are like really long now

No fair… my brother is going to Dublin, Ireland and Amsterdam for 3 weeks when he moves back here. I wish he would ask me to go so bad, but I am poor anyways. Maybe if I didn’t run my credit card up again. Why did I have to do that? Do you ever spend a lot of money, and you’re like… “hmmmm, what did I spend it on?” All I can remember is my MacBook Pro. I wonder if he’s going to smoke pot. He has a long vacation until he has to go back to work. I don’t think he would, though, because he’s not like that. But that’s why everyone wants to go to Amsterdam, at least the dumb people I know… or used to know. If I went to Amsterdam, I can guarantee that I would not smoke pot. I hate pot. It gives me really bad anxiety. I smoked it with Emily a while ago, and I only did it because she gave me some anxiety pills to take before we smoked it. Pot used to be great when I was younger, but not anymore. I quit when I was 16. Lots of people that used to smoke pot tell me the same thing. They say that they don’t like it anymore because it makes them paranoid. It makes me paranoid too, but it’s more like anxiety.

I don’t know how I was able to eat a lot of chili last night, when the day before I was throwing up ice cream. I have ate solid stuff a few times, but most of the time I can’t. Maybe I’ll try to get some sushi tonight. My band is really so tight in the morning. I can’t eat anything in the mornings. It hurts when I take large sips in the morning. It was so weird that I was starving after I ate it too. I probably could have ate 2 or 3 of them., and that’s a lot of food, even for someone who hasn’t had weight loss surgery. Maybe not 3 of them, but I could have ate some more. I know if I get some sushi tonight, and I can’t eat it, I’ll be forcing myself to because it is SO good.

Dude, the iPhone is a piece of SHIT!!!! I have been with AT&T/Cingular/Suncom since I was 18. That’s 7 years, and I have ALWAYS had PERFECT reception with EVERY phone I have EVER had. I have had a lot of phones too. Well, I was wondering why no one has called me today, especially my mom, and I try to make a phone call, and I have no signal. This happened the other day. Two people told me that my phone calls were going to voicemail, and I could not make any phone calls for about an hour after I woke up. Well, it’s been a while since I woke up, and still no signal. I just turned it off and back on, and then I had a signal. I just called my mom, and yeah, she tried to call, and it went right to voicemail.

I need to go shopping I never go shopping anymore. It’s because my check card is declining, and then I can’t tell my mom that I spent money I don’t have and ask her for it. I am going to try it right now online. I am going to try to buy the Projekt Revolution tickets. Grrrrr it declined. I got one overdraft fee, and now it declines. It did this once before, and then it started working again. I know… I am so bad. OMG, I wasn’t even paying attention. A $6.00 parking fee and an $8.95 convenience fee, for each ticket! What a rip off. So two $20.95 tickets were $70.00. WTF is a convenience fee? Because I am buying them online? My stupid electric company charges that when you pay your bill online. You’d think it would be easier on them if you pay it online.

God, this stupid guy I met keeps asking me if he can come over almost every day. I keep telling him I have a boyfriend, and his whole agenda last time he came over was to make out with me, but I didn’t. Then when I was mad at Steve the other day he said we should date. It’s so funny how much more guys like me now. I thought I would be bitter about it and think “they wouldn’t have liked me when I was fat”, but I don’t really care. One time he said “we can just lie in bed and talk” haha.

I don’t take pictures of myself still…. like full body pictures. I still feel SO fat. When I look in the mirror I don’t see that I have lost any weight, especially in my face, but people tell me I have lost a lot in my face. Maybe I have, but my face is still so fat. I wish I could get liposuction on my face. I wish I could get a boob job and a tummy tuck. I will be able to get a boob job after I lose all my weight. For that, I am definitely going to quit smoking. Only because I could barely breathe when I woke up from my last surgery, and they had to gave me some asthma medicine, and because you get cut big time, and you don’t heal as well when you smoke. I just looked it up. They gave me Albuterol. My mom’s friend that had gastric bypass just got the skin removed from her arms, that’s it, and it cost $8,000. Insurance will pay for tummy tucks and full body lifts sometimes, but I don’t think mine is severe enough. I’ve lost a little bit in my boobs, but not much. My old bras were wayyyy to big on me though.

All the new Victoria Secret underwear I bought, they won’t stay on me. They fall down, ask Steve. It pisses me off because it’s not like you can give your underwear away lol. If I can’t use something, it makes me feel better to give it away, so I feel like I totally didn’t waste the money. Even if it’s to a thrift store. I don’t like wasting money, even though I do it all the time. I take REALLY good care of my belongings. I never lose or ruin anything, unlike my brother. It pisses me off so bad still that my GPS was stolen. I don’t want to buy another one because I already bought one, and it doesn’t feel right. I don’t even listen to my iPod in my car anymore because I am scared I will forget to take it in, and whoever broke into my car probably saw my AM/FM transmitter (if they realized what it was. they could have thought it was a cellphone charger). I am surprised they didn’t steal that. Thieves will take whatever they can get. I think stealing is SOOOOOO wrong. I don’t steal from stores or anything, but that doesn’t bother me as much because they rip you off anyways. I would never steal from a store because I wouldn’t want to get caught, but if you could guarantee that I wouldn’t get caught, I’d probably do it. I think it is SOOOOOOOOO wrong to steal from a person though. People work hard for what they have. I buy stuff that I don’t have the money for, so it pisses me off even more.

It’s probably because I have seen my parents work SO hard for what they have. They had shitty jobs when I was younger and worked their way up, and they are HARD workers. They worked for and deserve every single thing they own. That’s a lot more than I can say for myself. They never asked anyone for money, and they go to work every single day and work their asses off. Now they don’t work as much because they have better jobs, but they still work hard. I wonder why it didn’t rub off on me. Probably because my mom gives me anything and everything I want. Even when we were poor, both of my parents always made sure we had everything, and put my brother and I before them. They always called me selfish. I don’t think they meant with material things either. I am selfish because I expect everything from everybody, and I don’t mean money. My brother turned out A LOT better than I did. I don’t think it’s always the way you were raised that determines the adult you become. I have seen people come from shitty homes, and they turn out great. I have seen people come from great homes, and they turn out all fucked up. I have seen people with great brothers and sisters, but they are all fucked up. Emily’s sister is a lot like me. She expects everything from her mom and doesn’t work, but Emily works really hard.

Well, I am going to get some money from my mom Seriously. Bye bye.

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Adderall and WLS

I was all excited about my doctor giving me Adderall. I in no way, shape or form want to get high off of it. I was excited about being able to concentrate.

I went to fill the prescription, and they said my doctor needs to call in prior authorization I guess because it’s a narcotic?? So is Ambien, and they never had to call in. My insurance doesn’t even cover anti-anxiety meds. I think that is BS because anxiety is a real problem. I’ve only taken it a few times, and luckily the generic is only $15.00 (for 2 weeks). Still though, I wouldn’t want to pay that every month. That was just for one pill a day for 2 weeks. Some people need to take 4 pills a day or more, every day of the month.

My doctor asked me if I was asking for it to help me lose weight. Ummm… I seriously didn’t even know it did that. Looking at Sarah, I would have never guessed, but she’s been taking it since she was a kid. She told me to take 5mg for a few days, then increase it to 10mg. I think that is the lowest dose, which is fine by me because I do not want to feel my heart pounding out of my chest. She said it could cause sudden death if you have heart problems. I am pretty sure I don’t have heart problems, since I had 2 EKGs and a lot of tests before my surgery.

I decided I am not going to eat. Yep, I am officially anorexic, and not by choice. Maybe it is by choice. I am not really an anorexic though, or else I wouldn’t have needed the surgery.

I’ve been addicted to drinking coffee lately. It’s probably because I am sick of Crystal Light and water. I can’t have carbonated drinks. It’s the best taste I can get with 0 calories… except whatever the creamer has in it. I was using powdered, but I just went and bought some fat free Coffee Mate. I always used powdered because I would drink coffee twice a month or less, so the refrigerated kind would go bad. Splenda is great! It makes everything taste better. I have never tried any other kinds of artificial sweeteners… at least in years and years… but soda made with Splenda tastes a lot better than the crap made with Sweet’N Low.

I seriously don’t know why people don’t eat healthier. I guess it’s because they don’t know any better. I didn’t. But diet and light food is just as good as regular, and I mean it! I’ve tried low fat ice cream, fat free ice cream, light mayonnaise, reduced fat Cheez-Its, low fat string cheese, and so much more that I can’t think of. It all tastes great!!! They would make more if fat ass Americans would buy that shit. But they look at it and think it will be gross since it is low fat, fat free, or reduced fat. Not that it’s healthy to eat low fat ice cream and shit. I know it is still not healthy food, but it is better, if you are going to eat it anyways. I have just had a little, because it’s still not good for you, and because it’s what my nutritionist would call “empty calories”. You are eating, getting full, getting calories, but you get no nutrition out of it, when you need all the nutrition you can get after this surgery. Oh… and the best is Jello sugar free pudding. It has 60 calories, and they have caramel, chocolate and a million flavors that taste just a good as the real thing. If you want a candy bar, just eat sugar free chocolate pudding.

Honestly, I don’t know if this makes me a hypocrite, or if it gives me more of a right to say it, but it bugs me seeing people eat all this crappy food. It bugs me to hear that someone is eating pizza, McDonald’s, Wendy’s, desert, every freaking day. It does bug me more when people are overweight and eat it. It bugs me to see my mom and cousin do it. My mom is not 300 pounds, neither is my cousin. My cousin weighs 190, and my mom weighs 180, but still.

This surgery definitely changed my life. It’s been 5 months since I had it, and I have not gone back to eating the way I did before, but I have wanted to SO bad sometimes. It’s hard to go the grocery store and walk past the bakery. I CANNOT imagine living with someone else and having kids. I think that would even make me break down.

I am not losing all this weight by eating crap, but just eating less of it. I am far ahead of people that have had my surgery. Did you know with Lap-Band surgery, the average weight loss is 4-8 pounds a month? Sometimes I lose double that. You are not even supposed to lose more or you don’t get a fill. Sure, I am anorexic at the moment lol, but I have been able to eat. I just eat more healthy. I can’t brag that much, because I do throw up a lot. Sometimes I throw up, and sometimes I don’t.

It just makes me upset to think that some people that want this surgery are going to continue to eat the way they did before, and they are not going to be very successful. People on the Lap-Band forum complain all the time that they are not losing weight. Maybe with gastric bypass you can eat whatever the fuck you want and still lose massive amounts of weight. It’s not the same with Lap-Band. You can also gain all the weight back, and then some (with any WLS).

I am glad I didn’t have gastric bypass. There would be a 1 in 100 chance I could be dead right now. I know a lot of people, who know people, that have died from it. My mom’s friend almost died last month. She had a 50% chance of living, and luckily she lived. My next door neighbor’s mom died from it. There’s nothing wrong with it, and for some people it’s their only chance. I am not trying to make a point… I am just rambling. You have to be under a certain weight to have Lap-Band, so it’s not like some people have a choice. My good online friend, they made her dad lose 30 pounds before he could have it. I am not sure what the weight, or probably more like BMI, is. I know I had to be over 205 pounds to have the surgery at my height. I fucked around with the calculator on the Lap-Band website.

I am not trying to preach or make myself sound perfect. I am not exactly doing it by the book either. Some days I get 3 grams of protein or less!!!!! I am supposed to get 60!!!!!! I’ve barely been going to the gym. I know someone that wants Lap-Band, and I don’t want people to believe that it is all easy and crap. It is far from easy. I am in pain a lot of the time. I want to cry sometimes because I am so hungry, and when I try to eat I want to cry because it hurts so bad. I actually did break down and cry when I went out to eat with my family when I first had the surgery. I mean… I was bawling. I had to leave the table and sit in my mom’s truck and cry and cry. Yeah, it is easier than the old fashioned way, but it still is not easy.

This post is really long, and I don’t know if it makes any sense or makes me look stupid. I probably sound like an uneducated hypocrite. Oh well… fuck it all.

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Is it worth it?

This pain is not worth it anymore.

The options I am considering:

Suffering, even though it is not worth it. If I do that, I plan on not eating anymore and just consuming liquid. It fills me up great, and I don’t really miss food when I drink.

Getting .5ccs removed or what ever my doctor recommends.

Getting 1cc removed before I go to New York and Maryland. I want to be able to eat when I go to out to places, and I don’t want to be an inconvenience. I don’t want to be running to the bathroom when I go out to eat. There’s not even anything I can eat. I can’t even eat pudding. I don’t want to be around people I don’t know and have them wonder why I am not eating with everyone. I don’t want people to think that I am too shy to eat around them and try to convince me to eat. I don’t want some people to know that I had weight loss surgery.

I did successfully eat solid food once, but I can’t even eat pudding anymore now.

You know what I get a lot when I go out to eat? The waitress always says “you didn’t like your food?” Haha. Ask Steve. I just say that I wasn’t that hungry.

My hair is falling out like fucking crazy. I always thought hair that is not attached to your head is nasty. There’s a ton of hair at the bottom of the bathtub when I get out of the bath. My brush is full after I brush my hair once. There are hairs all over my shirts. So much hair comes out if I run my hand through my hair.

I’m lucky my band has not slipped yet. Throwing up can make it slip. I will need surgery if that happens. I have thrown up at least once almost every single day since I have had my surgery.

This is not a necessity, but I cannot drink carbonated drinks anymore. Now it is painful when I drink them. I am not supposed to be drinking them anyway.

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Throwing up talk

Most of the time I can throw up once, or a few times, and it comes up easy. Most of the time I don’t throw up food that has been in my stomach for a little while. I usually throw up right away. I just waited for over a half hour to throw up, and I could taste the acid from my stomach ewww. I got real sick to my stomach, and my stomach started contracting (?), and I was trying to throw up more, and nothing was coming up. That doesn’t happen real often. 97% of the time when I throw up I am not sick to my stomach.

Edit-
Dry heaves. Thanks Steve.

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I’m going to Maryland

I always thought long distance relationships were SO dumb. Well, Steve lives in Maryland, which I really didn’t like at first, so it was hard to take him serious. But he has been driving to see me. I like him SO much that I don’t care. I’ve never met a guy like him before. I’ve never had so much in common with a guy or could get along with a guy so well. He doesn’t drive me insane. He doesn’t make me want to go psycho. At first he did drive me a little insane because he was so nice to me, and I’m sure you know I was not used to that, but I started to get to know him and like him a real lot, so it doesn’t bother me anymore. Sure, I had exs that were real nice to me. Chris was nice to me, but I hated some things about him, like how he used to leave me all the time (a lot) to get high with his friends because I didn’t let him do it in the house, and I wasn’t going because I didn’t want to be around it. Dede was great, and we never had any real arguments, but we bickered with each other a little. I’ve been with Steve a little over a month, and I would normally have been in at least 5 arguments with a guy by now lol.

Steve does the sweetest small things. I have always known that small things make me happy because a lot of guys in this world are jerks. Some guys can’t even do small things, let alone big things to make you happy. I don’t expect him to do this, and I wouldn’t get mad if he didn’t, but he will always tell me if he is going to go out with his friends, just to let me know that he won’t be home and stuff. He tells me he misses me. He spends a lot of time with me. He does things with me. He doesn’t get mad over small stuff. I haven’t even made him mad yet. He pays for my dinner and stuff, but I totally hate that. I don’t expect money from anybody, except my mom

Anyway, I am going to Maryland to see him in 3-4 weeks. The only reason I am waiting that long is because the tickets are a lot cheaper if you book them 3 weeks in advance. I would leave in 3 weeks, but I will be leaving NY in exactly 3 weeks today. I am going to stay with him for a week. He may come see me this weekend.

I am waiting to talk to him to make the reservations tonight. It will probably be tomorrow when I make them. He texted me and said he’ll be online in a little bit, but he needs a map first lol. I’m pretty sure he meant to say he needs a nap first. We were up real late talking last night, and he had to go to work this morning. My mom goes to bed no later that 8pm, and she is paying for the ticket, so I’ll have to do it tomorrow. She’ll just give me her credit card number to book the flight. I just want to know what day he wants me to come. I don’t know if he wants me to come on the weekend or what, since he has to pick me up in Baltimore, which is 45 minutes from his house.

The ticket is only $145.00 through US Air. I’ve never seen an airline ticket that cheap. It is over $300.00 to fly and see Emily in Georgia. My mom said she’d pay for me to go there whenever I want. I’m sure not every weekend, but you know what I mean.

I am excited! I love to travel. I wouldn’t care if it was to West Virginia, Wisconsin, or some place like that lol. It feels so good to get away.

I just successfully ate some solid food. It was good at first, but my stomach has been hurting for a little while because I took two bites in a row. I may go throw it up, or I may not. It depends on how much longer it’s going to hurt for. Obviously it isn’t unbearable, or I would have been over the toilet a long time ago, but it still does hurt. Yeah, I think I have to go get sick. Done.

I haven’t commented on anyone’s page in a really long time, a REALLY long time. I need to, and I still read the sites I love every day.

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I feel like crap. I slept too much.

I dropped my desktop off at Best Buy yesterday to get cleaned. I want Windows too. I just don’t like using two computers because I neglect one of them, and it makes me feel like I wasted money. I guess I can just use my laptop at night when I am lying in my bed, and I’ll probably use my desktop more since it will be on my desk. Not that I am actually using my desktop when it is in my closet. The speakers take up a lot of room, and I don’t have that much room on my desk. It will fit, it will just annoy me. I believe that less is more when you decorate your house. That’s not happening in my small apartment. I used to be a “pack rat”, but not anymore.

You know, I still have ALL my fat people clothes in the trunk of my car? My trunk is filled up with that, and I haven’t been able to put groceries in there, or anything, in a long time. Maybe I’ll take them to the thrift store today. I just took out my fat shorts to give away. It was funny when I was putting my new shorts away. I didn’t have to, and I couldn’t even if I wanted to, fold them horizontally because they are so small.

I haven’t lost any weight in a few days, and it’s kind of annoying since I am eating next to nothing. I guess things are going to go the way they have been going since I had my surgery. I won’t lose anything for a few days, then I will lose a lot for a few days.

It’s a definite fact that I have lost 74 pounds. That’s what my surgeon says, and that’s what my digital scale says. I am still confused about what happened with the liquid diet weight I lost, from when I was on the clear liquid diet for the week before my surgery. It’s like one day I weighed myself and I lot 10 pounds, and the next day I weighed myself and I gained it back, but when I gained it back I was still on the liquid diet. I didn’t know until the morning of my surgery when they weighed me at the hospital. I know it wasn’t the scale because I weighed the same when I got home.

My surgeon got a new digital scale, and it matches my scale perfectly. Now that I think about it, I think they took that I weighed 258 from what I told them, since their scale always said I weigh more. They let me report my weight a lot on forms when I was going to classes. Anyways, it baffled me why they didn’t have a nice digital scale. It is a very nice office, and the have the best surgeons in the very large area I live in. They preform A LOT of weight loss surgery. People from over 5 large cities go there. I’ve never heard of anyone going to anyone else for their weight loss surgery. My mom knows a TON of people who have had weight loss surgery at her work. It’s a real wide scale with handles on it for really fat people lol. Also, at the place I was taking a lot of my classes at… mostly the 3 month supervised diet with the dietitian… it’s like a physical therapy place mostly… we never got weighed once, they let us write in our weight. I thought that was kind of funny that their scale was broken, and the insurance company wanted to know our weight, but they let us write it in and we could have been lying.

I guess I lied about my weight, because at the time, I had no clue that I had lost 20 pounds. I wasn’t even weighing myself like I was supposed to be. Once I found out, I was so scared that they would deny me. They want you to try to lose it on your own first. They expect you to follow what the dietitian is teaching you to see if you can lose weight without the surgery. I did not exercise once, so I have no clue how I lost 20 pounds. I, for some odd reason, lost my appetite. I think part of it was what I was going through with Andrew and the stress and crying every day. I still was not eating healthy, though. It’s still odd to me that I would lose 20 pounds, when I had not lost weight in years and years, and I didn’t even try. So what the insurance company was getting, was stuff I filled out myself, and I didn’t report any weight loss. I guess it may be a good thing that their scale was broken.

I don’t think anyone I know, or anyone that reads my site, actually believed I would have the surgery. I talked about it for almost exactly a year, and things kept getting pushed back. I would miss appointments because I am not a very reliable person, and I would have to wait a month for the next appointment. My insurance canceled my June 6th surgery date, and I didn’t have the surgery for 5 months after that. I had to take a 3 month supervised diet class, and then had to wait for another surgery date.

I could almost make this a weight loss surgery blog. Well, at least it’s not a blog about Andrew anymore

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Band stuff

I just got back from the gym. Of course I got yelled at by the guys there for not going in so long. I am so thirsty, but I can only take tiny sips of water. I don’t want to drink while I am there because I am scared I’ll throw up. That would be so embarrassing. It’s kind of hard to not take big bites when you are starving and take tiny sips of water when you are thirsty, even if you know the consequences. I have never had a problem drinking, once, since I had my surgery. I could drink a whole bottle of water in one minute if I wanted to. To be honest, I discovered it when I first tried to drink yesterday, and I was drinking champagne. Yes, I have been drinking carbonated drinks, which is a no-no. The first sip I took hurt, and I thought it was because it’s carbonated because they told me it would be painful to drink carbonated drinks, but it never was for me. So I figured I couldn’t drink anything carbonated maybe because I got my band filled. Then I tried to drink some water, and I couldn’t drink that either.

I get so jealous when I am next to someone running 8mph, and I am walking fast at a measly 3.1mph. I burned off all the calories I am probably going to eat today. I think water is making me full too.

I went to the gas station to get gas, and I got two packages of AAA batteries. I thought that’s what my scale took, but it takes AA batteries, so I just wasted $5.00 I wonder if they’ll let me take them back. I try not to put too much gas in my tank when I fill it myself because my mom usually steals my dad’s gas card for his business and fills my tank up for me. Yes, she steals it. He doesn’t know about it. But since they are married, that business is legally hers too. He has no clue how much money my mom gives me. He’d be real mad if he knew. He can’t even come to my apartment because she doesn’t want him to see my new furniture and TV. He knows she gives me a little. He knows when I come over for money because I am there for 5 seconds then I leave. He yells at me and tells me I need to stop shopping. I tell him I don’t shop haha.

I found out some good info. My band is 10ccs, and I have 5ccs in it. I still have plenty of room to lose all my weight, he said. I suspect I will be down 100 pounds in the next 3 months or less. Maybe less because I think I am going to lose a whole lot of weight this month.

Ha, Andrew called me last week. I was being really mean to him, and he started to get mad. I said “it’s not very nice when people are mean to you, is it?” Then he hung up on me.

I am cooled down now. I need to go take a shower.

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3 pounds in 1 day!!!!!

I just weighed myself, and I lost 3 pounds in 24 hours!!!! That’s the most I’ve ever lost in one day. I’ve lost 2 pounds quite a few times. I was 189, but then I gained a pound back and was 190. Now I weigh 187. I guess it is well worth the pain, but I often doubt that when I am in real bad pain.

I just ate a little bit of pudding. It was stuck a little, but it wasn’t painful, then I coughed and it came up.

This is going to be so tough. I am so not looking forward to eating real food. It is WAY tighter than last time, and last time was torture. He said that he just gave me a little fill too.

I need to go get new batteries for my scale. I definitely need that working. There’s a low battery symbol on it.

I’m excited. I am going to the gym today. I need to start drinking water like asap, but I just ate, so I am waiting a half hour… if any of it is left in my stomach. I can just see myself getting dehydrated because I don’t pay that much attention to drinking. Watch, I know it will happen. I am not going to be getting that much water from food. You know… like how bread is 70% water.

I’m supposed to get 64 ounces of water a day. Ha. I don’t think most people even get that much. You don’t need that much water anyways. I’ve heard all over that it’s been proven that you do not need that much water, that water does not help you lose weight, and it does not make your skin healthier. Dr. Oz even said that on Oprah.

I don’t watch Oprah that much, and I haven’t been watching that much TV, but I always bring up stuff I have seen on Oprah.

I am going to the gym in a minute.

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